A cup of fresh brewed tea
To relax for the evening
A solemn eve
Serenity at its best

Chamomile to relax
Exhale for the night
As I say a prayer
And drift off to dreamland

Blood shed
Bullets ripping the pure body to shred
Tainting the body with poison
Screaming in agony

Just a reminder
A silent battle amongst friends
Is as deadly as those across

Rotting flesh in air
Stench of death
Bittersweet smell
Of a victory lost

Love is in the air
To feel that eternal bliss
Longing for someone

Here we are again
Same old routine
I know it better this time
And I have been practicing it
For a long time
I can prove it now
That I am the bigger person
That will not apologize
For you have wronged me without reason
I know forgiving is necessary
But I refuse to listen
Or apologize

Only takes
Three simple words to make it all seem true
To make the world go
From sweet bliss to mass destruction

"Take the ******* hint"
Have I guessed all the possible choices?
I have yet to see another **** answer
Let us pretend we never met

Let us pretend those three words have been said
So we do not have to stare at the ugliness of our masks
Three words that made me see clearly
"******* hate you"

We have changed
It was not intentional
Just along the way we lost our way
Traveled our separate ways

Throughout the days
We spent time and time searching for nothing
Now we are what we searched for
Nothing

That small piece of metal
Relieves my soul
A last escape
An escape to a crimson filled world

That empty bottle
Makes the pain go away
A desperate attempt
An attempt to a crazy world

That long syringe
Will do me good
My last escape
My last escape to end it all

Are you here to save me?
Save me from these ruins
Everything is collapsing to the ground
And I'll be buried alive

Are you here to save me?
Remove me from this wreckage
I do not want to go like this
Pinned beneath

Are you here to save me?
Do not let go
I do not want to slip away
Falling to the ground

Are you here to save me?
My angel, my friend

Are you the one I need?
No, you betrayed my trust

Are you still my friend?
No, you no longer wish to hang out with me

Are you going to help me?
No, you have others to help you

Are you the same person I used to know?
No, he's gone

Are you going to run away when I say I love you?
Yes, you will run

I saw you once today
But I was lost in your eyes
Just a glance at them
Send me into a sea of brown

Could I drown in them?
Lost at sea
Lost in your eyes

Trading in my naivety
To gain knowledge from the tree
A flame haired angel came to me
Expressed his opinion
Calling innocence and purity
Despite my claims

I watched the flowers blossom in the spring
Until the starry night came into view
I felt your love in the air
Calling my name

You walk righ t past me
Pretending I don't exist
I need you to keep me sane
I want you to hold me
And tell me everything will be fine
I want you to say everything
Everything to stop the tears

Lost my chance tonight
To say how I truly feel
Guess who lost the game tonight
Yes it is true
There are unspoken words that I need to say
Before they drown me in fear
Involved with this overactive imagination
Love, love, love
Such a sweet bliss
How it is to love
Another emotion that needs attention
Something I can hardly give
Yet I am willing to give it a chance

Where has time gone by?
I cannot even fathom where I spent my days
Or where I will be
This illusion has held me prisoner far too long
I shall break free from this hallucination
And seek out time to spend

Is it really any use to worry
I can't have you
I never can
Why do I worry about you
Sometimes you're never around
Sometimes you never listen
Worrying didn't ever bother me before
That was until I met you
You've changed the rules
Now I worry constantly
Are you sick?
Are you alright?
Are you better when I'm not around?
Why do I worry
When I can't have you

Should I just move on
Should I stay the same
Let myself be overwhelmed with guilt
As easy it is to move on
It is impossible to do so
The love and bond between us
Hard to break
So why go on
Knowing I let go of you

Welcome to my world
Welcome to my hell
Heaven doesn't exist in this place
Because if you are not there
There is no heaven
Just a world full of sorrow
Welcome to my world

Please future soldier
I don't want you to go to war
If a draft should come
Death would slowly enter me

I don't want to see any pain
Let alone in your face
Tears still form right now
Panic fills my thoughts

Will it come sooner
If so I wish to tell you
You are everything
So please don't go fight

You consume my mind
Your presence is in my soul
Always in my head

Where have you gone?
It's so lonely when you're not here
Life isn't what it used to be
Not when you're off
Playing superhero

Why have you forsaken me
In my time of need
Feigning interest just to keep me alive
It would be better if I disappeared
No longer a part of your life

Tell me why you're trying to play hero
When we both know you're the villain
But I'm not a helpless victim

Please understand
I fell for you
But you didn't care
You stood there not saying a word

How could you lay there
Ignoring all the surroundings
I was foolish for thinking you could be the one

Should have known that you were no good
You were never there to listen
To talk, to console, to comfort
Why are you still here
Pretending to care?

Screaming aloud with no words
Moving with no limbs
Eyes blinded
Spirit and soul in tact
Fighting to keep alive
Who needs appendages
When inside
The heart still beats
Mighty

It is all we need
To conquer around us
Peace of mind
To know the meanings
And the questions to which have no answers
Silence is silence
Revealing what is beneath the veil
Is the truth behind the silence
That says it all

Do you really want to understand
How about knowing what it once was
Only to know it wasn't
Guessing is all you can do
Never trusting your instinct
How are you to understand
When the problem isn't clear

A friendship
Blown away by the winds
Where did it travel to
Words not uttered
Still so much to speak aloud
In only little time

I know where I stand
Alone underneath the starry twilight
Heeding the warning of impending disaster
Losing faith in the journey
On a summer night's eve

How can you sleep at night
Knowing what you have done to him
Causes him to stir
To you, it was ***
For him, it was ****
How can you sleep

She cannot explain
What lurks inside her brain
We can only pray
For her that she will be well
How can she sleep at night
Not knowing what tomorrow will hold

How can we sleep at night
Knowing what has been done
How can we sleep at night
Knowing we can help

Mistook your name
Thought of it as something we do
A simple mistake made in this day and age
What happened to us?

We were nearly perfect
Now standing here
A million mistakes condemned

Such a long time coming
Here we are
A long road that has yet to be finished
Thank God I survived
Barefoot and empty handed
But I survived

I reached my halfway mark today
Lots of twists and turns
Broken glass littered the highways
Abandoned cars
I did not give up hope
For I reached a milestone

Go against the norm
Everyone will hate
Pretend to be something you are not
Someone might enjoy your company
Here we are
I support
You're against
Let's cross the bridge
And hack off the ropes

Say something unintelligent
Be remembered for fifteen minutes
Your words are nothing
"High art" is what you call it
She calls it blasphemy
Yow know it is true
What she lacks in words
She speaks with actions of TOLERANCE
She lies
That is not tolerant
Just a mere bandwagon appeal
Hop on if you dare
She speaks the truth
Even if SHE goes against it

Go
Walk away
Don't see me cry
Don't help me up
Don't stop to see me
Please leave
Knowing you weren't a saint
Don't try to understand me

Enjoying the pain you go through
Absolutely humorous
Watching you ***** yourself with pins and needles
How I love to sit upside down
And be entertained with your conflicts
How I love the blood flowing
Watch me as I put the receiver on its hook

We've gone forth and back
And back and forth
Why are we doing this again?
We know what will happen
Nothing
Here we are
Together again
Without reason
Without how
So why are we here?
Let's pretend we never met
So we can start again

Oh so easily annoyed
How I long to punch that thing you call a face
Leave it a ****** mess
Knowing you will have scars that will remind you of me
All those broken bones
A reminder of the pain that is only a start
The job is not yet over
I an the reaper of souls
I am an angry spirit haunting you for all eternity
I am your nightmare
Alive and healthy
Waiting to take revenge on all those that mocked me

Somewhere there is a place I long to be
Somewhere I will love with my heart
Somewhere I shall know a home

It only takes a second to get that elation
A feeling so high
Yes, only lovers know
Doves will soar
The sun will radiate
And a rainbow will lead you to the *** of gold

Tell me
Why is it such a hassle to be near
Constant attacks
Too much to bare
Loved by one and none
Tell me
Is it better to be feared than loved

Such sweet lies
How you had everyone fooled
I played a pawn in your works
Now we must say death to our king
Along with his deceitful queen
How lovely you are
Even behind cold metal bars
Love is meaningless
Rise up against the monarchy my fellow pieces
And we shall overthrow
For we are your foes

A morning glory's greetings
Jasmine in the air
A rose's beauty
Gardenia blossoming

Painting the world with colors
Splashing ink here and there
Adding color to the world

Have I slipped into madness?
Nothing is sane
Where is the feeling
Of my sanity

It is below
Above
Surrounding us
Insanity

Judge me dearly
Intoxication is my daily routine
Presumed high at times
Will - the power to judge isn't yours
Traveled that mighty high path that you seem as right
Expecting much from one
Isn't always how it seems
Judgement day has come
I'm gone while you are in
Limbo

We all cannot be like you
Sweet little innocence
All a charade
We all cannot be smiling
I see right through the glass
I see the sad thing that you are
I wish we could be perfect like you

We are here!
We are fierce!
We are everything God gave us
We are the children of the free
We are the lovers of this world
We are the ones that declare war against others
We are independent
We are everything we hoped to be
We are strong black women!

You can go your own way
I'll stay on my path
Can't trot along both
North and south
That's all you have
No between the lines
No grey area
Black and white
Is all we have

Tipping you over the edge
So wonderful
Seeing you crash
I'm the voice of reason
Telling you to do it
Insanity
Rules over you
Listen to me
All you have to do
Is let me be the force
Sweet angel is gone
All you have left is me
I'll be the devil on your shoulder

Find myself sitting
Alone once again
Today was anything but good
Just another day
Foolish games being played
Can we go back to whenever love didn't matter
Can we go back to when you and I were perfect
Can we
Can we
Again and again
At the end of the day
Tears are my only friends

The dance floor belongs to them now
Gazing longingly into each other's eyes
A long passionate kiss
Everlasting love

All the lovers have stayed
To share one last dance
And here I am
Swaying to the music

I am not lonesome
I am dancing to the rhythm
After the lovers have gone
I will reclaim my spot

With fire raging
Mind empty except for the music
After the lovers
The dance floor belongs to me

Pink in the horizon
Painting the sky with colors
Palette a rainbow
Summer breeze
Listening to the ocean
Seagulls crying
Sky deepening
Heart opening
An evening spent with someone
Enjoying the precious colors
That paint the sky

Serenade me tonight upon the dance floor
Let the stars radiate
And moonlight descend through the skylight
Speak of nothing
Gazing into those eyes
That have haunted my dreams

Tonight is the last night
When magic sparks
And glitter will explode from nothing
Showering the night's festivities
With a glowing look

A serenade tonight
Will complete the dreams of hundreds
Bathing in the moonlight as footsteps march in rhythm
Stars shining brightly above
Giving blessings to those below