we sat next to each other
anxiety high

                                     hands almost close
                                                 almost

smiles exchanged
little glances here and there

                                                          there for another
                                                          to celebrate
                                                          drinks, food
                                                          tables abuzz

                         but i couldn't take you from my gaze

your brown eyes
your gentle smile
the way you held your hands
               close to your chest

                                       the drive home
i kindly asked you to
                                        
                                            "i suppose"
was enough for me

the lights of the town blurred
as we reminisced
passing cars as we stopped for gas
laughs as we indulged in candy and ice cream

didnt anticipate to be home soon
we sat in the car for what seemed like hours
i was happy to just be there
with you in silence

last night
i wish i would have said more
"i suppose"
was enough for me

I thought myself in limbo
Until you gave my heart a home
Shelter from wandering in the rain
The fire you provided
Warmth, comfort
The smile you shared, inviting
The love you whispered
True

A laugh
The minute you struck up a conversation
A shy kiss
Till the minute it ended
I adored you

Time passed by
Having spent my youth
On memories
I still adore

The waves lapping
The gulls crying
A false memory
I adored when you suggested a faux rendezvous

Neon lights, sugary kisses
The late night heat sweltering
A false memory
I adored when I pretended you were there
Seaside with me

In the present
Complicated
But still the same
The same old stir in my heart
That made me adore you

For when your heart is full
With someone else's love
I will still
Adore you
With tender eyes
And a soft smile