I am dancing in the shadows
Weak smile, weak knees
I bump into a stranger
How much longer do I dance?
When blood pools around my foot?
When my ankle finally gives in?
When the music stops playing?

The lights dim
The energy pulses
The music vibrates
The crowd blurs
I dance in the shadows of strangers
Moving in rhythm to seem normal

I want to give up

I am looking for someone I quite do not know
I walk past a million faces
And stare into each one
I am looking for someone to enjoy silence with
The days go by, night skies are companions of mine
Still standing around the busy street
Watching a stranger carry on
No one has captured me
I walk the busy road
Standing still for a moment
To see if someone feels like I do

Nostalgic for winter days
The chic look of a well dressed man
The coldness that made one long for a hot coffee
The dreary birthday
Where the prized gift
Was a winter scarf
To keep the neck you loved to kiss warm

A wallflower
Hears the cries of others
Responds accordingly
An act he knows how to play

And when he gets home
He fills the wine glass
To the brim
Overflowing

The lonely bed beckons
The soft red blanket
Feeling like a second skin
Underneath it all

Hiding from friends
Quite and desolate
Wave of sadness crashes
I float in the sea

I hear the sound of your heart
Falling apart
I'm the cause
That makes it break
Your tears
Are endless
And I cannot apologize enough

I hear the sound of my heart
Breaking through
To somewhere new
Where you cannot see
And I can be free

Crying after these years
Love floats away
Over the edge
Knowing we could never swim back to shore
I hear the sound of our hearts
Falling
Into someone new

I know You not in churches
But in the stillness of time
People say You are imaginary
It is okay
I feel imaginary too
A prayer uttered is not always heard
That is okay too
Because You and I know
It is for me to listen to my plea
And for me to answer myself
It is okay
For me to believe in You
And for You to simply exist
As the wind, the sun, the grass
It is okay
Because I feel love
Wherever I go

Don't judge a book by its cover
Hard not to when it's torn off
The nakedness of you
Exposed
Telling your tale
Deeper into the story
Barely a ******
That ends in disappointment