I could fall in love with anyone
Instead
I fell into you
Down into something unknown
I was far gone
Playing out scenarios in my head
A love affair
Long distance
Dates through blurry cameras
Can never be clear
I can wish you good morning
And you bid me good night
A love affair
With its destination unknown

Dragging across the concrete
Wondering when I would finally stop running
Tired from a hellish nightmare
Living among a dead you
Fighting to stay alive
Fighting to try to stay alive
Moving in the dead of night
To find shelter from the winter madness
To find a temporary home
Away from you
I took cold comfort in knowing distance

I remember the way you held me
In such a tight embrace
Your piercing blue eyes that were full of love
Whenever I fell upon your gaze

You were the wolf
And I was a cub
We were different
But so much in love

You howled at the moon
So everyone could hear
How I was only yours
And no one should dare

You wrestled away others that wanted chaos
Put your paw upon my heart
Uttering sweet vows
That forever would start

Every growl, every whimper
Every encounter
Left you wanting me
And nothing more

I could picture you
Strumming your guitar
Singing a tune you wrote
Especially for me

Your voice
Giving me chills
The way your words
Left a haunting impression

The echo resonating
The sound of you
A lullaby
Leading into euphoric slumber

Caught up in a moment that was never real
I was fascinated by your design
The way you could weave a story
And make me believe
In a fairy tale
That I wished true

You say so much
But I barely listen
Because your words are windy
I can tell myself
To just be a little halcyon
But no, I scream I want to leave
And I feel
Just a little naked
Exposed to the cold night air
I could see
How fully clothed I am
But the honesty from me
Leaves me vulnerable

I could say so much
Yell, scream
Berate you for leaving
But I know I do the same
But we both feel
Unprotected from the elements of love

You are not surprised by my departure
And I do not regret a single moment spent with or without you
And now I feel
Rejuvenated
Barenaked
Whisking away to find a new skin

I can finally say
How much I love you
It has been many years
Since I have known you

You have rescued me from drowning
Drowning, in my sorrow
You have saved me
Saved me from a life of emptiness

I can think of the days
Where we fought
And I won by default
But I won your friendship

How I cherish that more than life
I could admire you
For your many talents
And your passion, your strength

I can tell you
I have always felt safe
With you nearby
Knowing you could protect me from dangers

You held my hand
My God, I could feel how warm and strong you were
Love, rushing through your veins
But you stayed silent

You smiled from afar
But I could tell how you wanted to be so close
Fighting in the distance
But still, you wrote me when the opportunity arrived

I love you
My God, how I loved you being my hero
You never had to fight for my love
It was always there

I know now I love you
And I am sorry
For how long I have waited
But know that
I love you