With many promises
The wind will carry us
Every day is a journey
Filled with uncertainty
One step at a time
Admiring the beauty life has to offer
And the joys we receive
Life is a miraculous thing

Beaten down to nothing
All I ever wanted for love
But instead I received only lust
A tease
A drug that has me addicted
Committing a sin
And a breaking point in friendship

You've left me broken
A disgrace to everyone
An embarassing shame that won't leave
Guilty of a torrid love affair
One that means nothing to me
A cheap thrill to be entetained
And to feel loved
In a distasteful way

Waiting to exhale
Will that phone call come
Are you going to stay for a little while longer?
Or will He call you to a higher place?

Months have gone by
And it's so hard to breathe.
Haven't cried in quite some time,
Quite unsure if it's still possible.

Hanging on to faith
But I'm slipping from reality.
Entering another world where you're fine
And there is no more pain.

Can I hold onto faith any longer?
Can I be strong for you and me?

In my eyes you are God
In my heart you're the one I love
And even if you're not the one
Nothing changes the way I feel about you

And when I feel like giving up
I always remember that you've never given up
And I'll rise to meet the challenge
Just like you

When I'm feeling down
You're always there to cheer me up
And make me laugh no matter what
Something deep inside us
Is a connection

Sometimes when I'm crying
My mind wanders to the thought of you
And all tears stop flowing
Smiles begin to form into one happy grin

The thought of you never makes me frown
Not once
Because of you
I stand strong of who I am
And live a happy life

But seeing you with someone else
Makes me want to cry in front of you
And tell you I'm broken
And you're the only one who can fix it

No one else will tell you my feelings
But me
Rumors will spread about my love for you
And all of it will be true
But I wish I was the one
Who could tell you my emotions

Without you I'm lost
A perfect illusion in my own world
Where everything is right

But in my dream
All of it's an illusion
Because without you
Nothing is real
The thought of you never in my life
Makes suicide enter the mind
Not giving life a second chance

To be lost in a world
Without love, and hope
Would be like a suicide mission
Full of sorrow and despair
Regretting the past and the present
And what'll be of the future

But as of right now
It seems like a wonderful thing
You're off somewhere
And I'm stuck here
Daydreaming of the days I have to wait till I see you
The classes we have together
But always afraid to tell you how I feel
Afraid of how I feel about you

My love for you
Threatens our friendship
Which might be gone already
But we'll always remember our first love
Won't we?

I'm terrified of loving you
Because not many people make me feel this way
Especially not you
And over the years I developed feelings for you
Which I tried to hide very well
Until you guessed my affection for you

But as of right now
I just want to cry
While you hold me
And whisper in my ears that everything will be fine
Our heartbeats matching each others

I want my first kiss to be with you
In the rain
And never let anyone else
Share that memory but us
Unfortunately it is forbidden love
For us to share that kiss
By religion and others
But I don't care what others view me as

No one should know about that kiss
But us freely
And we won't speak of it
Because it'd ruin the moment and the memory
Of having a first kiss

And hopefully there will be a second kiss
One of the more passionate kisses known to man
And until our love for each other becomes real
It'll remain a dream of mine
A mere illusion in my fantasy world

Because it doesn't matter who you love
It's that you love...

Slowly suffocating
No oxygen
Pillow held over my face
No longer a childish game
If I could breathe
Just breathe one last time
To feel the air in my lungs
To breathe once more

Gambled away
Aces were my foes
Rarely a king or queen to aid
Taking chances
Placing a lifetime bet
And I lost

No words to utter
Mind is blank
Your being was all I ever wanted
Your embrace was all I ever longed for
And I fell for you
But feelings were not mutual
Not reciprocated
Every time we see each other
It is a slow death
Rendered speechless