Then: Your missed call made me worried.
Now : Your missed call makes me tense.

Whatever the situations present, I still had my feelings for you only in the past and I don't regret. Even though we are disbanded, my feelings for you would remain in the past forever. I don't bother if you are connected to me at present but I'll always be connected to my feelings in the past.  
Do you know why I'm repeating the word feelings? Because you have none for me.

Some can break things,
Some can break promises,
Some can break hearts,
But no one can break MEMORIES.
They are FOREVER.

Throughout my 3 years, I eventually got lost myself and found my new one too at the same time. I just want to cry one more time for my gang. Just flawless. I don't want to end this bond with this meeting. Wherever and however we are, nothing changes between us.
Once upon a time, I insisted on going to hostel. After all these years, I realized that I am a total *******. Without them, I may not know how to make memories. I love their effort of making me smile. No.. no... laugh. We laugh our hearts out. Harder. Just find some people who are just so pure.

We never know what comes next.
Maybe Three gerberas waiting for you either to meet you at your favorite place or at your grave.

Eye shots are hard to get over.
The heart throbbing moment, when you are stuck by your crush's eye hunt. But, you can't get your eyes out of those that haunt you by taking away all your senses out.

I made many faulty decisions .
It is good to have you in my life.
My feelings faded away because of a  Valueless friendship lost back in my past. Now I'm not gonna make sure in bringing back the feelings I have used to feel.
I feel miserable that  I can't feel the bond of our friendship now.

Everyone were just designed to their life. It's that one person needing to hold on to someone, being afraid but just expecting the love they needed and wanted which they already know they can't get. It's just someone who want to hold on to the love they believed to be deserved they are not coward or anything. It's just their limbs where cut off due to the past haunting them even in the present not even able to know how to get rid of it, making it pierce their life. Don't just take them that easy.

A feeling before you are aware of getting hurt, hits hard.

I can feel his breathing force on my cheeks
I can smell his scent gloriously
I can feel the pressure of his heart
I can sense his shattered past roaming in the face
I can see the wellness for having a sight of me
I can see the tension of threading of words when speaking of me
I can sense him romanticizing of our characters through the cartoon.

It's been a long time.
The vibes I had with you, came back hitting my nerves a perfect sync reverberating the same sound I had heard from my heart when I am acquainted to you.
This is making me zone out for hours.
I am not in need of this again.
I want to give myself to me.
The dome of my patience is slowly breaking down.
The insignificant hateness gonna sprout rapidly which I didn't mean to grow in my garden of life.

If I'm your gaze, you're my attention.
If I'm your star, you're my obsession.
If I'm your one particular song, you're my whole playlist.
If I'm your glimpse, you're my whole movie.
If I'm your swaraa, you're my sangeetham.
If I'm you're sight, you're my eyes.

Breathing hard.
Fingers trembling.
Eyes shuttering.
Feelings arousing.
Weather tempting.
Throat gulping.
Words knocking.
Stares approving.
Storm lightning.
Grazes assuring.
Locked!

Nerves pulling towards your presence is the only reason for my intense sight.

Reluctant desire drags us to a position where we can only feel the "I can't ,but I should." principle.

Don't hesitste when opening up your feelings to someone. This moment may not be the same as when you are going to be rejected. And there will be void misunderstandings.

I wonder how you enjoy music.
I wonder how you look like while smiling.
I wonder how you talk at our first encounter.
I wonder how many ways you are searching to seek me.
I wonder what scenarios you are letting go through your mind.
I wonder how many times you think of me.
I wonder how admiring you are.
I wonder how you can carry my gaze with such gentle eyes.

My heart scattering into pieces
Your eyes sparkling at his but not mine
My blood cogulating like anything
My throat gulping for evey second you laugh at him
Why can't your eyes shoot mine?
Don't they deserve?!

I think we need to break down at least for once. Would be strange.. But yes, just a matter of fact. It's the only way that you can know your pain and how much you've been through. Better divulge it, rather than letting your pain weigh on others.

Things will never be the same as today.
You might be grieving for the loss. On this same day, the next year, you might be proud of yourself.
You might be expecting from your partner while you are dwelling in sorrow, that they might change. On this same day, the next year, your partner might be spending the time with you somewhere in the park.
You might be expecting someone to walk away from your life. On this same day, next year, you might be lying in their lap, talking all the nonsense they've never heard of.
You might be frightening that your son leaves you in future. On this same day, the next year, he might buy a new house for the whole family.
You might be flirting with someone that you like. On this same day, the next year, they don't even bother to remember you.
You might be be tired of trying for what you have been trying to acheive. On this same day, the next year, you might be in greater position than expected.
Things will never be in our own hands. Just rest your shoulder on god's trust.

I know that you didn't mean to hurt me but definitely, I know that you are the reason behind my every hurting now and then.

Sometimes accident leads to incidents.

This gut feeling
As you lean to me :
Heart pounds,
Breath breaks,
Eyes contact,
Body freezes,
Craving increments,
Touch finds soul.

Sometimes it's a feeling like you can't get them out of your brain coz it knows that your heart still feel for them. But you should let yourself pull out and go on easy.

I think love is not only about caring but also letting them face challenges on their ownself believing in their capabilities.

Just like the night neon stars in my bedroom, your memories stood in my life. Light in the night, dark in the day.

I might sound selfish but, It's not about having the most opinions; I just want to be the only one that matters to you.

I don't need to be consoled but only concerned.

Whatever the relationship maybe, one has to take the worry of the other. We can't expect what comes and goes out of our life. We expect the least and the opposite. Loving may also come with the leaving. Not all the expectations come true. Learn to live the life to the fullest. Hold your hearts to the loudest who can listen to you in a room full of chaos. Go through every phase that meant you to be together. Don't hope for anything but love the journey of 'Throughout the way'.

I'm sorry that  I can't be with you now. But I'm extremely missing you so muchhhh. Careers tied the knot separating you and me. Every tear coming from my eye got your name and feelings for you engraved within it. Crying doesn't mean you hurt me. But it signifies my happiness around you,with you. So let me express it for you. Love You.

Maybe love is not loving their choices for them, but loving their choices more wholeheartedly as it is ours.

I cannot sleep right after this conversation
I  ******* hate my feelings which gonna hurt me in the future being aware.
I can't just let it out even for 3 days...Feeling like hell.
I can't withstand those memories haunting me out for having once more into a relationship.
I can neither hide my feelings nor express them.
It is tearing my heart into pieces that can't again hold out my feelings to someone anymore.
I shouldn't let my heart skip again for someone's love .

Until - The word which tells us either a sad story or a merry one.

Someone whispered "She is Yours",
"She is already mine!", I chuckled.

Sometimes I used to stare at you and 'Ahhh..I'm gonna miss'.

A moment.
The sound of busyness in the traffic.
The soothing fresh air touches my bunch of hair strands.
The warmthness of the morning sun
The sunshine scatters at the entrance.
Thoughts about how toxic some persons are.
Also how good our people had the urge to make us happy.
And how some people can go crazy about us.
Remainders of regrets.

Me : I may not make your mood better. But I'll definitely ruin your mood.
He : But.....YOU are my only mood.

Having you by my side feels like a perfume.
Long-lasting.
Heartspread.
Silky.
Relaxed.
Sprinkling.

Your meagre gestures of jealousy gives me a chance to initiate pretentious arguments.

The hardest feeling ever is when the person you love becomes a stranger, and you realize that they will no longer care for you.

It's not that every person you love, deserved to be your best one from their side. They've their own priorities. They've their own life to lead. You must be aware of this. And no expectation kills you.

Then : I have my writings and I have you
Now : I have my writings but not you.
The only thing permanent is my writings.
Things have gone so far.

Not all friendships are ideal.

Some involve adjustments.
Some doesn't invovle secret sharing.

Some involve sacrifices.
Some doesn't involve consideration.

Some involve care.
Some doesn't involve consolation.

Some involve influence.
Some doesn't involve recognition.

Some involve in mosaic magic.
Some doesn't involve realization.

Some involve clarity.
Some doesn't involve maturity.

Some involve childishness.
Some doesn't involve objections.

One day the feel that pierces your heart when you just come to know that your loved one doesn't feel for you anymore.

Things weren't same as before.
You have really mastered it well in turning one's feelings to numb.
Can't feel the pureness anymore.

Mine calling theirs?
Can't get enought courage to accept.

I don't want you but I just want me & my feelings towards you to remain forever.

Thought you are "The only one".
But you are "Also the one".

I may have left if it is any other one...but it is YOU that concerns me hardly..