My heart beats fast when I lie,
But the same when I tell the truth,
Why is it I feel guilt when I’m honest?
Must be the stereotypes forced on the youth,
It reaches a point where I feel dishonest,
But my innocence means nothing
when I’m the bad guy.

I am not blind to the words you say,
Nor death to your hate,
I am simply ignorant
And forever dumb to the negativity you offer.
I am not strong enough to turn you down
But not weak enough to cry.

I’m numb to dying and to words,
We have to be numb to survive,
You have to freeze your thoughts
And don’t feel them- Don’t let anyone in,
You freeze them
And build your wall.

Because you are numb.

The waters are running high,
I’m drowning
In your water shaped blood,
I’m ******* drowning
Oh, why is your blood so thin?
Why is it so ******* thin?

Brother my friend loves me more,
Your blood is not thick.
I’m not drowning brother.
Don’t save me brother.

**** love, **** trust, **** love,
I loved once and then I died,
He ****** love and then I cried.

******* love killed my soul,
Took my heart and left a hole.

Trust gave me nothing but ****,
Nothing but hope, that’s all it did.

Now I’m dead
So **** your love, **** your trust,
And
**** your love.

I’m actually ******* dying,
From your words that cut me deep,
So deep I’m ******* crying.

Now these voices won’t stop haunting me,
They say “ **** yourself”
If I **** myself they set me free,
But I know they’re ******* lying,
But I don’t care
Because I’m actually ******* dying.

I spoke to the devil yesterday
He said if you sell me your soul
What will I pay?
I said one million pounds and a life worth living,
He said do you agree this is technically killing.
He gave me advice before I took the offer,
Just be numb to the pain and life will forgive,
Look at the world happy and not negative.
I don’t want your soul it’s broken in bits,
But if you fix it, I’ll take it,
without giving you tips