This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
Is lay here, pretending I don't want to kiss you.
I ****** up bad, and your inability to forgive.
After I was blind to all your mistakes,
Your errors that should've sealed our fate
Shows me, that I loved you more..

I feel sick to my stomach.
The words just spewed like ***** from my mouth.
The damage is done and so are we.
A few mere pages, when you promised me a novel.
Now just empty spaces..... our future has been erased.
I lay here in bed ashamed and disgraced.
You have the ***** secret, yet I'm the *****.
You sought me out, you begged me to stay.
Even still... here we are, together in bed, in mutual hatred.