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ALINA Nov 2018
I am looking at u....

Noticing ur smile
Happiness on ur face....not for me neither cause of me...thats against ur style .
I am still luking at u...trying to search for tears that might exist smwhere missing me...but not a single trace of me was all could see
I continue luking at u....wanting u to luk at me...smthing u should say
My eyes filled with tears when u luked at me...smiled....bt giving a strange luk ,walked away .
Standing there alone....i was waiting
Expectation i had...was all fading
Glow on my face reappeared when i saw u again
With roses n choclates in hand
Made me realize there is smwhere i still remain...
As i accepted ur rose....smthing ***** me hard...n now
My eyes asking me to go back to sleep again...cause my heart didn't want my bit of happiness to discard .
No wonder....u will nvr see
Nvr understand what i expected u to be....still in thought writing abt u...thats how much u r alive in me  .
ALINA Oct 2018
She is different...

Smtimes cute,smtimes crazy
Smtimes lovely,smtimes creepy...
Secrets hidden inside her
Smtimes mature smtimes kiddish !
Ppl don't see it.....
Smtimes selfish !!
Selfish, nt in swtness....
Nt in her caring heart
It's just an attitute developed cause of the...
Experiances apart .
She is worth frndship.....
Might hurt u smtimes, try to spare faith,trust....can't really express
But i do care.
What eva it is...anger,harsh,hell face it      My heart demands
My frnd is different....count her in ANTIQUE few
Variety of people around, accept her too.
ALINA Jan 2019
Luking at me ur eyes shinning...
Deep in tears asking for forgivness,
i see my reflection there
All that time i spend ,drowning in tears wasn't fair...
Your harsh behaviour turned a beautiful place into a drought land
All the gud time we spend
got covered with Sand
Everything urs was mine,mine was yours
Love strings knotted....
Scars on heart were not visible but
But ma fake smile was getting spotted.
Even if i were distracted, i would have never given acceptance...
Turning me into someone i wasn't
was making a beautiful flower loose it's fragrance
Decision i had to take, moved On
No place for darkness anymore
CAUSE
Couldn't effort hurting myself again like Before .
ALINA Nov 2018
Fake Frnds Fake love
Things got Blured
True Love True frndship
Not what everyone deserved
I stand still
Luking at Ur face
Admiring things that belonged to me in those beautiful days
Its not about Love relationships
Its about a Pure Frndship that never Stays
Fake frnds Fake Love
Why blame all of these
Insecurities and Interpretations
That lack Of Trust ,
A shadow Of Pain Followed
Not My stuff Not my experience
Just some realistic Feelings Borrowed.
Don't blame him/her
All I was wrong
Who am i to Hurt myself
For People who are already Gone.
ALINA Nov 2018
Am i writing for myself
Or is it for u to know...
My presence couldn't express
The Pain u watered to Grow
Every Bit thats broken
Every word unspoken
Still wants u
Still needs u
Just to let u know
The Pain u watered to Grow
ALINA Mar 2019
Being right all the time is not what it demands....it demands trust
It demands Faith it demands being comprehand.
Odd
ALINA Nov 2018
Odd
Shoot an arrow at bulls eye
One Quick fall made her fly
Glowing the same way
Red blue green yellow
Candles On cake
Only One special She wanted to Blow....
Randoms were beautiful
That One defined her age
Artist Singing on stage Would be of no Use
Without the Background Music From Backstage....
Unjustified Secrets deep
Nightmares during sleep
Beauty Is beauty cause
Of An Ugly One
Even Is Even cause of
That ODD One !

Imagin Defination of Healthy Life Without a bit of FuN !!
ALINA Oct 2018
A star Engraved within , trying so hard to shine BUT keeping it hidden

Misunderstanding it to be not better than mine.
Love is just a word to express feelings, not a promise to live through
Hurt....experience about
how wrong it had grew .
Not the happiest person on earth but YES pretending is a talent ,
Smile on face Tears all evaporated
Act FAKE is not what it meant !
Peek inside Star still trying to shine
Request accepted & yours better than mine .
All within hidden so deep...
Get it approved with a blast of confidence
SCARS speak better says an inspiring experience  .
ALINA Oct 2018
Wishes come true with a Blessing
Demands fulfil only on asking
All she gave was Love & In return
Expected nothing

Choice is just a word all that happened -An unknown adventure
Worried only of getting separated
Cause in reality dreams do not comprise future
Stuck in mind He occupied a Royal place in heart lasting till the end
Found a way through maze that’s Inseparable as a ‘Friend’
Have one be one Love the one
People asking to separate
Left None
No explanation No fears
Little twist in thoughts brought
No more tears
Wish fulfilled seeing him smile more
No commitments No complications
No more ruined futures like before

Every second attachment Him with her
At least will be able to face each other
Even though Expected future seems blur

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