When the darkness comes all i dream of is the light,
When the light comes upon me all i dream about is the night,
Im a mixed up twisted indecisive individual,
When im mad at you all i want is to feel you put out the fire,
When im sad i tell you to leave me alone in hopes youll decide to stay,
Im high,
As high as i can be,
Laughter,
Smiles,
Hugs too,
But on the drop of a dime i contemplate time,
I feel worthless,
I feel unwanted
And i feel like a mess up,
So i run away so i dont hear "Oh just **** it up",
Because i cant,
This uncontrollable,
Unpleasant,
Undeniably random hell in my mind wont let me,
I didnt ask to be this way,
When life turnes to death in the drop of a hat,
When light turnes to dark in the matter of seconds,
Wanting to escape a room with no exit,
Untill it allows u too be free,
         Bi-polar.

Your eyes,
Deception lies?

Too good to be true?

Scared,
So scared you actually exist.

Me,
Young naive?

Scared to believe,
Still skittish and broken.

Wonderful,
Oh how i feel in the morning knowing you thought of me,
Jealousy,
In the pitt of my stomach,
That i hope its only me so bad i could puke type feeling,
Desire,
To hold you close and show you what i can do,
To want you and everything that comes along with you,
Baggage and all
Pleasure,
Warm breath,
No sight,
One place to the next id kiss,
A cool breezy yet warm surprise,
Give you all i know in hopes to blow your mind,
Remember,
I want to be the woman you remember,
On your mind when you have a thought,
Resounding in your head type remember,
Going crazy in your bed type remember,
The caraze to hear my voice again,
The sensation to feel me next to you,
Unbearable,
An addiction,
To need me,
Involve me,

Control me?
In my thoughts i can hear you,
In my dreams they have become so vivid i can feel you,
Fantasy,
To picture your mouth move as you speak,
To wonder just how warm your breath feels,
To wonder how your body feels with mine,

You ask whats on my mind and this all becomes a flash,
And every time all i say is,
You.