Give me a knife so that I may carve my insecurities into the flesh of the unwanted

Let the failures and disappointments bleed  
    out as the life from within seep onto the  
       unending thought of hopelessness

Trapped inside of a body and mind that is  
                     unforgiving
    Crying from within as depression
            overshadows my path

     I am lost in a world of cruelty yet      comforted by the  thought of pain while    
   my soul longs to be free and my mind
      fighting to keep from going insane

Sitting high off of THC, I numb the world
   To numb the pain.. the same pain that I    
                    found comfort in
   Cause that pain, that same  pain .... can    
     cause the hopeful to become hopeless
            And the courageous, fearful