I swallow air, as I'm pulled back under
The waves force me deeper, and deeper
    I look at the beach and the fun      
Secretly wishing I could be there to

I swim above once more
As I always do
No one seemed to notice me
Well, until you

You swam out to me
As I went under
You grabbed my hand
And held me closer

You left, but more came
And soon I reached the shore
And finally, maybe
I can enjoy life some more

I know you may leave,
And more may come
But I still love you guys
No matter what.

Fairy lights
Hung on the wall

I'd count each one
So bright and small

They look just like the stars
All up in the night sky

I'd hang those on my wall
If only I were that tall

So I'll just lay down and stare
At the lights, and at the stars

And I'll dream about the brightness
Of each tiny thing

And I'll be reminded
Maybe you do care

I can't breath
My nose all stuffed

My throat itches
And feels super puffed

I feel like dying
Or throwing up

Whenever I'm sick
Or have just had enough

Drip drop
A little rain

Drip drop
The pain still stays

Drip drop
I won't take it anymore

Drip drop
A rush of blood

Drip drop
I am no more

A little girl, in her room
Playing with dolls, out of the way of all doom

The little girl, now a bit older
Carries little burden, she is sober
She runs around the house happily,
But one night, she doesn't sleep

The teen girl, still growing up
Thought she had it all figured out
Thought she would never be this stuck
But with all the sleepless nights,
And all the memories in her head
That little girl, will never be the same again.

The girl, eyes deprived of life
Lies in her room, in the dead of night
The blood rushes onto the carpet,
And onto the dolls
As the once little girl
Couldn't take it anymore

My breath is steam
As it flows from my mouth
The freezing air all around me,
Mixed with the heat of my breath

I step in the snow
And it crunches underneath
And I feel bad,
When I feel the snows pain

My steps seem to fuel the snow,
Seems to help it grow.
As do the other steps of other people,
Yet can I only feel it?

I step on the road, to avoid the snow
But others still step on it
Do they know how I feel
When they do so?

They must think walking in the snow,
Is fun and amusing,
But it they stepped in the snow with my head,
Would they continue, or would they stop?

I question this, and find myself walking
Walking towards the snow again
It hurts, even the first step
But I know I'll never escape it

For the snow knows my heart and soul

I awake to the darkness.

I can't see, I can't hear, I can't breathe
Yet I can feel the loneliness

And sadness

Inside.

In the room I sit,
Since I guess I can't
Escape so I'll just fit
In with the darkness within

Cause no one likes the sick

I awake in the light,
But I don't feel happy, nor relieved

I hear the sounds of the birds chirping, and cars passing
But I don't like it, nor do I want to breathe

I miss the peace of the dark, I miss the stillness of the night

I wish I could just stay in my dream forever
They say that'll make me go insane..



But what if I already am,
What if I'm trapped inside?