I barely made it through the day
They almost found out im not okay
They say I have to follow through
How do I live my life?
Do I have to do this tomorrow too?
Do I have to get out of bed to do what I don’t wanna to?
Everyday I try act all happy
But the facade is starting to fall though
I give up, I give up on this life
Suicide is my last resort
An option I don’t want things to end to
Lately I feel so suffocated, restless, and irritated
I hate it, I can't take it
I thought there'd be more to life
Sitting on my bedroom floor with doors locked
while I hold a bottle
Maybe the pills will finally end my pain
I tried once before, and I got so close
So tell me what's more to life
Tell me again that I’m not good enough for life
Tell me will my story has a happy ending
And my future is mostly bright
Right now, the only light I see
Is at the end of the tunnel
Am I Daydreaming

I don't have the strength for another day
I’m so tired, I just want to sleep
I wake up every morning feeling so cold
I can't plan the day ahead like it's supposed to be
But life is so hard, its making a mess of me
I just can’t walk the path that's been made
Am I destined to be alone
Everyone keeps leaving me
What did I do wrong?
I’m so sorry
I realize that sometimes i go to far
I wound up on the floor with a razor down my arm
Catching myself in the nick of time just mumbling to myself
"Am I willing to die, let them win, and leave everything behind?"
I’d rather die than keep on fighting
So they can just wonder why
I’d rather take my own life than be alone and alive.
I’m saying my goodbyes
God knows i've tried
I guess im willing to leave it all behind
No one looked out for my best interests
Happiness?
**** that, it cost me this
It caused me so much pain
Hurt me every time you took that risk
So yes, I cut
I cut all the way across the wrist
I’m caught pretending, and imagining in my head
that I can finally cut so deep that I can't stop bleeding
I admit it It's my own fault, i've learned my lesson

She was 13 years old, when her life changed
Still unknown if it was for better or for worse
All she knew was that it hurt
It made her feel as low as dirt
Everything began to fall apart
It all started that night, so afraid, so scared
She didn't want to feel the pain anymore
Frozen she couldn't help she couldn't protect anyone
The sreams repeat over and over
She cant forget, it hurts to much
The memories filled with so much pain and misery
That night her world came crashing down
Father had a little too much to drink.
And mom didn't want her to feel the pain she felt.
But she still felt the pain…
She will always feel the pain
For a year that night kept repeating itself
Then he was gone and mom looked for love in other men
And she tried to act strong
broken hearts and scars in places only she could see
Cause she just wanted, she just wanted to feel something
“When will everything be okay again”
The question that is asked over and over again every day

No one ever asks if i'm okay
But when they ever do i say i'm fine or good  
I lie through my teeth
i'm fine
Even though im really not
I don't want them to worry about someone like me
I stay in a haze of lies
When i try to escape i get pushed back in
Every word cuts through
It's like putting salt in a wound
Say something stupid, something distracting
Or leave it alone and don’t say anything
I see all the shadows passing by
But i keep my head down
In fear i might break down
I might be losing my mind
I’m already haunted inside
I can't say anything
There's nothing to say
Im speechless
To afraid to ask for help

All i can hear is the sound
That echoes in my head
It's full of darkness
I'm straining to reach
To escape
The light on the surface,
light on the other side
i feel the pages turning
As i write what happens in my mind
The candle of time is burning down
My time is running out
As the wax starts to spread
my hand weakens
And my eyes fall
I can write no more
I have lost my strength
I will soon be gone
When the light of the candle stops flickering
And the ink turns red
I will soon be dead

There's No point in fighting,
  As it starts again
I'm only but a meaningless being
I'm a bit troubled as I wander alone
My last dance
To forget my own misery
I want to get away, everything to just start over
I hear the noise, I run and I'm afraid
Is this my turn?
Here comes the pain
I abandon myself
Nothing but hope
On this road of absence
Try as I might, my life is nothing but a meaningless shiny decor
For Whose offences have i paid in full
See how my heart is broken
For i have been shattered
I'm a child of the world that has been broken
And soon to be replaced

When it's the past that prevents you from moving forward
So nothing can get better only worse
It feels just like a curse
Breaking you down from the inside
Building up the walls to keep others out
No one will forget the mistakes you made in the past
They don't care who you are
They only care who you were then
They make you want to change
To hide away in fear
When you really just don't want to be here
Breaking down every night
Not even wanting to fight
You lost your strength
You lost your hope there's nothing left
Just empty silence
you're all alone
They all left you
There's nothing left
There's nothing there
you are left in despair
And no one cares