I was trapped in a cycle of abuse at one point in time.
I didn't see it for years as I grew, but then something snapped.
Call it destiny,
Call it the right time and the right place,
Call it having my mind open to change,
Call it whatever you want.
Either way, I saw what I was doing, not only to the ones I love, but also to myself
I noticed now I'm so used to the abuse, I take a minute to compute when I'm met with my lover simply just talking to me.
The comfort in their soft embrace feels like no other. The deep affection and freedom has become like a soft blanket
I was told marriage is a chore,
It's something that you're forced to do and the spark will die
But who made it that way?
I can't help but feel like our love, our spark will never die, I suppose time will tell, but I can tell there's something completely different now and I never wish to return to the old in physical space.
If you feel lost, confused, or afraid, maybe I can help, maybe I can't. Hopefully I can at least help by continuing writing. I'm not sure what the future holds for me, but my life feels okay right now and I treasure this moment.
For I don't know how long it will last,
Nor do I know if it is truly real
All we have is now
I just wish I saw it sooner