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Ain Aug 2018
I know you.
U know it.
U say that always don’t you..?
You words hint me.
You may deny it.
But I know it.
Why do you beat around the bush..?
Why not talk to me head on..??
It’ll be a good conversation I promise...!
Better than the silence that surrounds our souls.
The uncomfortable feeling.....
The stomach grumbling....
You experience it I am sure.
Let us deal with it like adults.
Lets not run away from what is within us.
Coz what’s within us makes us US.....
Let’s grab the words and let it out....
It’ll be a release....a relief...
Let’s do this for ourselves...
Let’s do this for each other...
Lets talk.
Ain Sep 2020
"Juda ** kar bhi Dono mein...
Hain kitna gehra sa rishta...
Tapish kuch dil mein hoti hai...
Baras kuch aankh padti hai..."
Ain Jul 2018
Drama play and then the act...
The real theatricals are such a tact.....

Lies and lies and lies and lies.....
Then tear rivulets to support the lies....

Then elaborate stories to cover the lies.....
Then stories are covered with elaborate lies....

A tale there a tale here......
A different tale for each ear. ....

Then lies again and glycerined tear. .....
With confidence and without fear......

Exceptional talents have earthlings got. ..
Creativity of the minds that plot...

I feel so vacuous, aloof and low......
I am a wasted insert in this show.....
Ain Sep 2020
.....and then it came.....unalarmed. ....sudden.....the slap on her face. ....

The argument had started the previous day.  The matter didn't even matter as it was so trivial. But the fight was big.
She first made her timid suggestions and then put them a bit firmly as she strongly believed in the plan....A plan they had both carefully plotted ......she cud not fathom the sudden change and he cud not fathom the disagreement. ....

Two years into the marriage. ...still primitive. ...still raw. ...still fresh. ...still. .........

She hadn't quiet recovered from the shock of what had just happened when the phone rang. ....one hand on the cheek she answered the phone with the other. ....

Mom it had to be. ....
"Happy birthday to you meri jaan...."
"Did you already get your birthday gift. ..???!!!"

"Thanks Ammi....Oh yes I did. ...and I am holding it with my other hand....."
Ain Sep 2020
It's a covert untold, unheard
It's a maze a muddle vague n blurred
It’s to be buried deep beneath
To let the memoirs never be revealed
It’s to be trampled n trodden with feet
To let the epoch cease to breathe
It’s a series of captivated moments
Blissful, poignant, intense, cold
It’s an anecdote of devotion
A self-destructing desire…………………….
A reward a triumph a delusion -
It’s the blessing of an angel
A curse remorseful self-deployed
It’s mountains n plateaus n valleys & the deep sea…
It’s a sigh……!!!!!!! It’s a cry….!!!!!
A chronicle  - non existent
It’s a basic block of thought
That bore the burden of being…
A thought----which burst as a bubble….
Hah…!!! It’s simply my life----
My One Life….
Ain Sep 2020
Tum so rahe ** jaan....

Par is dil e bechain ka kya karun jo betaabi aur behaali ki zanjeeron mein jakda hua tadap raha hai. ....

Tum so rahe ** jaan....

Par is dil e nadaan ka kya karun Jo nahi jaanta.... nahin samajhta....nahin maanta... bas machal Raha hai .....

Tum so rahe ** jaan.....

Par is dil e ghafil ka kya karun jo bhool Jata hai raat aur din ke adaab....us ke tareeqe...us ke harkaat...sukunaat.....bas khud hi khud woh to intezaar mein khoya rehta hai....

Tum so rahe ** jaan.....

Par is dil e jahil ka kya karun jo faslon ke hudood se na waqif hai. ...is se naap tol aur hisaab nahi hota bas ghadi ke kaanton pe tak take lagaye sochta rehta hai ke is waqt ke zalim kaanton ki ghulami use kyun karni pad rahi hai . ...

Tum so rahe ** jaan. ...

Par is dil e Masoom ko kaise kahun ke use dharakte rehna hoga. ....Saanson ki maala ko simar te rehna hoga. .....jitna bhi mushkil ** use jeete rehna hoga. .....ke wohi tareeqa hai wohi raasta hai. ....usi tapish se guzarke use rahat e raabta e dildaar hasil hoga. ......

Khair tumhe kya pata. .....

Tum to so rahe ** na jaan.......
Ain Jul 2018
Don't ask me to define. ...
Don't ask me to validate. ...
Don't ask me to justify. ...
Don't ask me to rationalise....
I have none of the above answers....
It's not depression nor is it deprivation...
It's not suffering nor is it suffocation ...
What flocks us two in the way we do. ..
I have no way to know what binds us two....
It's an unknown uncontrolled impetus....
That goes beyond the limits of reason....
So I don't understand. ...
Let it be not understood. ...
Let us be engulfed in the mystique of mystery....
Let's breathe and live this love. ....
A love that is free of a label.....
Ain Jul 2018
It’s not you.....its me.....
It’s just me.....
I don’t blame you for what you said....
I only blame me for how it felt.....
I don’t blame you for the way you’ve been....
It’s only just me for I let it touch me...
I know you were just you.....
I know I failed my own self in doing the same....
In being me.....
I allowed your essence to mingle my soul....
Careless I was I didn’t see the inevitable ....
The hazard....the danger....the evil....the darkness...
I allowed your venom to work it’s way....
Within me....inside me.....
A venom so lethal....so vile....so vicious...
A venom you named previously as “love”
Ain Sep 2020
“It was the first snowfall of the year. ......"

Standing by the window pane , I could see the snowflakes take its place, slowly,  one by one upon the bench by the backyard. Just like I could feel the winter our relationship had for the first time experienced. Cold moments were taking its place now upon our once really warm association.

Last night was the first night that we had slept without that warm snuggly embrace. How could he have forgotten that we had decided never to sleep over a row?
How could he have been so sound asleep when I was struggling to stop the flow of those tears?
How could he not feel, hear, sense my despair over such a cold indifference?
Was I overreacting?  
May be.
But never before had he left me weeping like that and turned over to the other side and calmly coldly slept through the night.

I imagined that the morning will bring a heart warming smile and in an instant melt away all of those frozen feelings of sorrow to give way to a beautiful spring of love that which always flowed from the depths of his heart to merge with the ocean of love in mine.

But the morning brought extended disappointment as he dressed up in the same cold indifference and walked off to continue the day. Leaving me with a shuddering shiver and a taste of the first snowfall of the year. ...........

“Winter had arrived....”
Ain Sep 2020
Bada mushkil tha woh Lamha tere dar se nikal ne ka...
Ke ruqsat ** rahi thi main magar ek juz wahin par tha...

Thi aankhein aansuon se pur qadam aage hi na badhta...
Nazar mein kuch nahi tha Dil mera shiddat ke ranjh mein tha...

Kuch aisi kaifiyat mein chal padi Chalna muqaddar tha...
Kabhi lautungi main dar pe mere Zehn mein mere yehi chalta...

Yun hi chalti rahi, main *** kahan par Yeh na kuch socha...
Jo peeche dekha maine ghar bohot hi door tha choota...

Ke ab to raasta bhi ghar ka mere mujh ko naa dikhta...
Ke kaise jaungi main ghar ko mere mujh ko na tha pata...

Mere atraaf mein bas tha bayabaan aur veeraana...
Zamane bhar ki thokar ka Yeh pehla sa tajurbah tha...

Safar se thak chuki thi main aur mayoosi ka aalam tha
Par Tu ne chod na mujh ko diya Bebas besahara.....

Achanak dasht o sehra mein woh aaya ek masiha tha...
Badi hi door se dikhta mujhe us shaks ka saaya...

Usi ne rehnumaai ki sahi simt us ne dikhlaya...
Khushi se jhoom uthi main jo pata ghar jaane ka paaya...

Mujhe jaana kahan aur kis tarah Yeh ramz tha pehchaana...
Ke saathi ban rahe the "Ain" tere Na Tanha aalam tha...

Safar ab khushnuma tha har taraf manzar suhana tha..
Ke ab bhi chal rahi *** par safar ab na tha anjaana..
Ain Jul 2018
Words words and more words....
Empty meaningless weightless words....
The patent words the jargon words....
The sugar coated fake spurious words...

At first they are the mirthful words...
Slowly transform to blithely words...
The words that heal and the hurting words...
I’ve lived with them all kinds of words...

But words are just but only words...
No life no feel no bleed these words...
The love and dreams and hopeful words...
Are but just only laboured words...
Ain Sep 2020
Phir teri mohabbat yaad aayi
Phir mera bilagna yaad aaya…
Phir teri naseehat yaad aayi
Tera raub wa jalwa yaad aaya…

Tune jitni jheli takleefein
Us dard ka ehsaas yaad aaya…
Tune zindagi bhar jo bhi kiya
Tera jud o karam sab yaad aaya. ....

Teri kaawishein teri koshishein?Tera jaan lagana yaad aaya. ...
Teri neikiyan tere khair amal..
Tera pyaar lutana yaad aaya...

Teri hayaat se seekhe hain jo jo...?Har ek sabaq woh yaad aaya. ...
Tera muskata har dam chehra...?Woh roshan nazara yaad aaya. ....

Ba vaqaar jo jhele gham tune...?Tera sabr se sehna yaad aaya….
Teri zinda dili teri saada dili...?Deen' mein thos aqeedah yaad aaya. ....

Beta, bhai, shohar, walid ** ya dost?Har ek farz nibhana yaad aaya. ....
“Ain" tum bhi amanat daari karo...?Usne hi seekhaya......yaad aaya..???

Phir mera tadapna yaad aaya...
Lamha rukhsat ka jo yaad aaya…
Ae Firoz tu aisi misaal bana.....?Jaane kitnon ko tu yaad aaya. ....
Ain Aug 2018
Like the soft breezy cooling air
Like the gentle sun of winter flair....
Like the sight of glorious rains I see....
Just Like that you came to me....

Like water offered on a thirsty day
Like a soft mattress when I tired lay
Like the sight of home what it does to thee...
Just like that you came to me....

Like the soothing sounds of soft jingles...
Like the sea with a sheet of white seagulls....
Like a flower pure fresh and misty.....
Just like that you came to me

My life had seemed so dull to me...
Just then you came and made me see...
How a smile can mean the world to me..,
You gave birth to the mother in me...
Dedicated to my daughter Neama on her 7th birthday.....
Ain May 2022
Zahir se mat tolo faqat meri zeest ka mayaar...
Ahem ke saare mudde to chupe hue hain yaar...
Pal pal mein kitna jeete hain marte hain kitni baar...
Pal pal se seenchi umr ka kaise karo Hisaar...

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