She was in everything i did
it was almost like
she was secretly
vibrating within my skin
not a day went by
when she didn’t consume my mind
i envied
the two birds flying
towards the blue night sky
and maybe it was
the summer breeze
or the empty streets
but for a moment or two
i let myself live vicariously
through the memories of you
Silently losing myself
in the shadow of your
Absence

I should envy
your invisible ability
to move on

So for a moment i did
i flew down memory lane
regretting each second
spent on your name
and anger flourished
through my veins
tears they fell down
with shame

but then i remembered
theres something incredibly
poetic about pain
that
healing craves
the absence of blame

now every couple i see
walking on the street
is a painful reminder
of what we could be

and the grass doesn’t stop growing
even though it continuously
is being cut down

i left the door unlocked
hoping you would walk
straight into my heart

there was a coldness
that lingered
hidden behind your words
like a bittersweet aftershave
telling me the truth
you never dared

The words taste so
familiar in my mouth
but its been so long
that its full with doubt