And
Sometimes music
Is better than people

I’m walking
but just because I’m in motion
doesn’t mean I’m moving forward
in fact
I’m walking backwards
turning into the very person
I wanted to let go of
along the way
breaking the v
promises I made
to myself

Happy
Short lived
But
Happy, am I not?
The air hums
With the sound of my laughter
Yet in the glint of silence
truth creeps in
Begging me to see
To give it a chance

You must ignore it
Look the other way
Be happy, they say
that’s all that matters
My friend

Are you not comfortable my dear?
with worried eyes they ask
But what about
No
Don’t finish the thought

Just be happy
Happy
Happy
Happy

But at the cost
of my
Soul

We’re all
Justifying
Filling our days
With habits that bind
Believing in illusions,
Of change
Buying remedies
for problems we’ve made.

You are to blame
We’re all haunted
Shackled by this shame,
Yet we play
keep playing the game
chasing scores
levels of fame

Ignore the knowing
The echo in our hearts
Begging us to listen
We are worlds apart
Our values lost
Off the map
We’re arriving in the city of egos
slipping further from
Our true selves

Stop
I can’t
But isn’t that the easy answer?
I’m tired
I’m weak
But this is my fate.

Life is hard either way
You know this.
The question isn’t how to make it easier,
My friend.
The question is will you choose,
or will life chose for you?

I’ve been wrong, haven’t I?
A painful realisation
To admit to myself
That the path I chose
Wasn’t the one

I’ve been pushing the world away
Thinking it was the problem
I’ve been using a flashlight
When what I really needed
Was the darkness
To truly feel the pain
To sit it with
And slowly
Become peace with self