There was a disturbing silence one I couldn't get rid of I wanted life, a little noise showing I'm not here on my own their smiles and their laughs all was silent to me maybe it was time for me to quit searching for something to make me feel human

But in a distance I heard a little noise I looked around to see you, surprised as I was it was unexpected who would've  though a person like you would give me the life and the company  I have been searching for

                    I hope this never ends

I'm happy that I'm happy it's been a while but never forget where you started from the hard cold floor from the tallest stance you're in. you started from the bottom and many will try to take you down there again but dont forget you are a fighter you've worked and prayed hard to get to where your at choose the right people love with all your heart but be aggressive when you cant take anymore never forget the goals you're reaching for

My lungs burn. It's hard to breathe. It's as if I have smoked cigarettes my whole life. But rather than the cigars you make me want to keep my love behind bars because all you do is break me keep me from wanting to be free if only you understood how much I cared. crying wishing that I was dying. You love me suffering??...I would turn to the cigarette. But I return to you instead

Walking across knives and broken bottles is better than listening to speak to me at all.
  You speak to me like you've done nothing wrong, speaking to me like you've haven't lied all along. They say "Hatred is bad you dont need all of that". I want to hate you but I hesitate to because all I think of is the best times that happened in our lives. I want to believe you but the thought of you abandoning all of us is there.


       Please tell me how do I forgive you.