a flame burns, dark and hot inside
underneath the crimson of my dress
melting satin with the beat of my heart
fluttering wildly against my breast
my hips sway calmly as i saunter toward you
i lift my hand to touch your cheek
then swing it back and bruise your skin
it seems you've forgotten what i seek
the guise of love, now not misplaced
your Thread of Life begins to unwind
you burnt my soul and now it's my turn
i'm just as evil, you're soon to find
the fire that now boils your blood
is the hateful fire that i have sent
reflected in my lovely blue eyes
i only said what I truly meant
i am Fury, the power that drives you
submit to me or your Fate will come
as you threatened me once upon a time
what I say tonight is what will be done

Dearest fair Lilith, impure and horned
The same indeed we both have scorned
For Adam, as well, did not intend to forsake
But your luscious beauty were all it did take
And what of Eve, who could not imagine such sinistry
She got just one taste of you and abandoned her ministry

Dominus Deus above, bearing good tidings and wrath
And Malus Infernus below, with all his pitiful chained
Together they attempted to divert us from this dire path
Yet neither could keep us prisoner against the preordained

So, with bells and umbrellas we skipped straight out of Eden
Hand in hand now we stroll among the bruised and the beaten
Too many souls perished when we were denounced as forbidden
This shall be a lesson to learn not to believe what is written
Now entangled in each other and quite merrily depraved
Lilith and Eve cannot ever be saved...

for you was i created, by you am i unmade
five by five, what you've left of my mind
and i don't think it's a fair trade
but five by five is not near enough time
for these scars to go from inflict to fade

for you was i created, by you am i unmade
hour by hour, i fold my mind and forget
you smile at me, undeservingly, and say:
'don't get upset, don't fret, it's just a threat, my dear-
don't get saucy; get stupid, you're just a pet; lay here!'

for you was i created, by you am i unmade
bruise by bruise, it happens too soon
-these marks are not always displayed
much like confetti; my psyche is strewn
pattern on the floor in the shape of a blade

+--|-|>>>>>>>

{for you was i created, by you am i unmade}

ancient memory; gemini epiphany
one of II II never ever sever never
severed; halved, cast inII the void
spinning spun in space & stunned
far-flung from her, i'd clung II her
the glass on the wall only lies now
it shows me me, not she.... not we~
emptiness breathes beside me now
flying half-blind w/o her by my side
fingertips extended & life upended
searching for that cadence of pulse
body memory; rhythm so like mine
i can still feel her hands, her prints-
the sound of her sighs so like mine
the ethereal feel II the fluidity of us
but i'm split in twain & she's unreal
i understand but i want her so bad
why do i miss what i've never had?

how wounded is my psyche when all is set adrift?
i think it true/it must be true; else it wouldn't exist
how branded is my brain with smolder-marks of you?
forever within me, you were like second skin to me
yet distanced by emotions running too high to be
quelled, dispelled, erased, removed or replaced...
i can't bear to think too hard, my dear~
one drop of you would make it all crystal
clear out my records, file cabinets in my head
down(loaded) recollection lane of memory instead
broken:solemn is my tongue as this fervor amasses
and it hurts to touch these now-disjointed flashes
but i touch them everyday, i touch them every, every...
time only ends up twisting me far worse on the inside
rate my heart at my heart rate's jump-sudden incline
you were never mine (you never were)
but you should have been (i wouldn't let you in)
but i should have back then, i should have...
listened to my heart and avoided this mess
unwillingly was i supposed to suppress you
these sensory memories are becoming affliction
the musicolors of your voice hasten forth unrestricted
eight years is too much time for us to have spent apart
if you still have my letter, then you still have my heart

i attract the broken
for the broken find in me
a mending to their edges
that mine will never see

{when half is lost
and half is bound
the aching left
is right profound}

the broken come magnetized
their dead eyes mesmerized

i pour what i can into them and i cry
that is what it's like to be a gemini
for the other half of me doesn't exist
i can feel her, she's holding my wrist
yet the air beside me begs to differ
-shrug off the notion and the shiver
she's not even out there/she's out there
LOOK!
hiding somewhere with her head in a book
i'll find her one day in this mess of matter
this pool of issues and stray souls a-tatter
until then, i'll sort through the broken
that find their miserable way to my door
and if her edges could possibly match mine
there's a she that's me enough to fall for

the broken come magnetized
their dead eyes mesmerized

{when half is lost
and half is bound
the aching left
is right profound}

i attract the broken
for the broken find in me
a mending to their edges
that mine will never see

strange it seems and stranger still
that one can lie at one's own will
you overfill your wretched cup
with floods of words that don't add up
inserting truths to pick up slack
and all because you can't keep track

strange it seems and stranger still
that one can cry at one's own will
it burns your eyes and swells your cheek
you've engineered a new technique
another means toward artful deceit
but soon you'll accept your own defeat

strange it seems and stranger still
that one can die at one's own will
slip the noose tight 'round your throat
three minutes and that's all she wrote
three minutes to remiss your sin
with your last breath you lie again