Half of my body says I don’t deserve
Half of the things I live to endure.
Half of my body says please set me free.
Half of my body says just let me be.
Half of my body loves him so.
Half of my body knows he’ll never show.
Half of my body says love over lust.
Half of my body says time over trust.
Half of my body knows too much.
Half of my body lies as such.
Half of my body says no one should save you.
Half of my body never forgave you.

You demand all my love and respect.
But as soon as I want yours,
You have none to give.
Where did it go?
Because I gave you all mine.

My heart wishes,
But my head would not dare.

I can’t run.
I can’t hide.
And I sure as hell,
Can’t stay here.

You ask me to speak,
Why are you so quiet? You say.
And when I do
You breathe nails
Into my lungs
and through my heart.
Silence. you say
I didn’t ask for
your opinion.

Did you say you want me?
Oh I’m sorry.
I only want people I can’t have
who don’t want me.

A part of me will always love you.
I’ll probably always hate that part of me.