Old lovers I'd like to see again
Different me(s) I'd like to be again
Since the beginning will never be again
I'm giving newness a chance to begin again

I didn't know love was made to feel like this
If this is what God intended for love then I raise my hands and rejoice in pure bliss
Surely He knew my heart when he granted me this one wish
To love and be loved unconditionally
To experience a love with the Holy Spirit and yet remain me

All my life I've dreamed of meeting a love designed with no lies
No deceptions
A love made alive
Made just for me
Once I found this charity I'd cherish for all of eternity
But life didn't seem to dream the same manner as me
Then just as I gave up looking for love
A greater love found me
Caught off guard it touched my heart
It softened something that once was hardened
My eyes became blurry
My arms wouldn't move
I couldn't fathom the words that came from my lips
It felt as though an angel came from heaven and gave my soul a kiss

I know my heart has lied before
But now it speaks truth
Ways of life brought forth by changes made to heal the places I’ve been hurt the most
In essence my very being was being tested
By the sweetest effervescent
Intertwining my soul with a spirit not of my own
Feelings of pleasure my heart has never known
Endless emotions with my minds thoughts driven like waves in the ocean
But I ignored them

A long tear streamed down the face of the once proud arrogant prince
He who had all the answers in his youth has since aged and the stage he finds himself at is
Packed with riddles that leave his thoughts crippled by simple questions like
When was the last time you were happy
Sounds kind of sappy but the gravity of the question
Created a sort of hesitation in his thought process
That left him confounded, dumbfounded
Drowning in the recess of his own ****** analytic mess

What we see with our eyes at times
Is a manifestation
Of what's going on our in own minds

Control is an ism
A psychological mechanism
That binds you to whatever it wants you to do
As long as you lack the inability
To see responsibility
As anything other than someone else telling you what to do
You lose
Trying to prove you're in control is a losing game
Because the only thing you truly control
Is the fact that you refuse to change