Being branded with shame
While it still boils in my blood
Leaves me with cold fingers
And vice-gripped lungs.
Oct 25, 2023
Oct 25, 2023 at 8:13 PM UTC
night leaves her breath on the windows;
mingling with Owl songs deep into black;
the stars crackle and burn the sky;
dreams propel the sleeper into silent fantasia;
mixing fact and fiction with wild abandon
a song appears on the horizon, a heart beating,
and a white horse gallops into the Sunrise.
Oct 25, 2023
Oct 25, 2023 at 8:03 PM UTC
Moving from mere observation and listening
sliding into silence, all separation evaporates
and you become one with your surroundings
so much so that you feel you have disappeared.
Apr 25, 2021
Apr 25, 2021 at 12:07 PM UTC
I used to think I had something someone wanted.
I was young innocent and not drunk.
I don't have power influence or even money for you honey.
Just this empty soul with no where to be but where I am
Nov 18, 2020
Nov 18, 2020 at 7:51 PM UTC
open to me the gates of love
let loves gaze burn off all my dross
that so I may with pure heart love, love back.
Nov 18, 2020
Nov 18, 2020 at 7:48 PM UTC
goodbye will outstay hello
and memory will make up what cannot be remembered
where there are no blanks, only darkened rooms.
Nov 13, 2020
Nov 13, 2020 at 9:47 AM UTC
i mean aren't i supposed to know
where to go and how to feel
what happens? when i'm abandoned.
on this raft in a sea called my emotions
im afloat but my heart is drowning.
i still alive but the sharks are surrounding.
the same sharks that feed
on the broken moments in my head
AS I LAY IN MY BED
i lay, in my bed and stare at the ceiling
convincing myself its okay to be mistreated
is it
Nov 12, 2020
Nov 12, 2020 at 12:13 PM UTC
mencintai tanpa memiliki.
klasik, ya, apa boleh buat?
aku tak pernah menganggapmu adalah milikku, pun aku adalah milikmu.
namun rasa itu tumbuh di antara kita, tanpa satu pun yang memaksa.
aku tau kau masih memiliki seseorang dalam daftar prioritasmu, terlebih, mungkin dirinya lah yang nomor satu.
tunggu, bukan berarti aku senang dijadikan yang kesekian; lagi-lagi, apa boleh buat?
aku hanya bisa menunggu sampai sang waktu memberiku lelah yang luar biasa hingga rasa sabarku perlahan habis,
karena ku tau perasaanku takkan pernah.
Nov 12, 2020
Nov 12, 2020 at 11:59 AM UTC
A constant battle rages.
Hot and cold circle each other in an elegant dance.
Decay feeds the blooming field above.
The sun and moon compete for our attention.
Inside, a wrathful hurricane thrashes against my skull.
Inside, the elements clash against my ribs.
Inside, the gravity of death and the lift of life rip my heart in half.
Inside, I don't know what to choose.
Heaven and Hell continue their war inside of me
and all around me.
They whisper to me the wrongs and rights of the world
but they tell me lies.
I close my eyes tight and clamp my hands over my ears
but they still find me.
I do not feel serenity in the natural balance of life.
I feel confused
I feel blurred
I feel chaotic
With the pressure to choose.
I cannot choose.
What if I choose wrong?
How do I choose who gets to hurt
and who gets joy?
But I do it all the time.
I choose to hurt.
So they can feel joy.
But I don't want it anymore.
What will happen to the scale if I decide to jump
into the river
so far below,
into the clouds
so welcoming,
into the fire
so destructive
into the ground
so cold underneath.
How will I find balance within me
if I cannot find peace in the balance around me?
Nov 11, 2020
Nov 11, 2020 at 5:45 PM UTC