__________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Jan 4, 2018
Jan 4, 2018 at 11:39 AM UTC
they tell me
not to think about
what ifs, and
they tell me
i should focus on
myself, but
they don't get
that's exactly what
i'm doing,
because
if something
happens, i need to
brace myself.
they tell me
they will be there if
i hurt, but
i tell me
i will be alone,
so alone.
Nov 19, 2017
Nov 19, 2017 at 1:56 AM UTC
Focus
(A Friends Challenge)
*Focus on the good things
That happen every day
Don't just see the bad things
And think that it's okay
Talk about a life well lived
The compassion someone showed
A moment of forgiveness
That touched someone you know
There are people all around us
Who lend a helping hand
That will give the shirt off their back
To help their fellow man
So many who are out there
That answer to the call
Each day they do amazing things
Wanting no reward at all
So focus on the good things
That happen every day
See all the things around you
That make this world a better place
Focus*
Carl Joseph Roberts
Nov 19, 2017
Nov 19, 2017 at 1:53 AM UTC
Same old stories told,
never too loud, never too bold.
The world shifts fast.
It won't be worth it,
If you don't make it last.
But this treacherous journey,
this promise for plenty.
They have corrupted
our fickle minds,
To make stupid decisions,
to love and not to bind.
Stay in focus, keep it clear.
And hold on to everything you call dear.
You don't need to carry everything,
Just to understand the most important thing.
Nov 19, 2017
Nov 19, 2017 at 1:51 AM UTC
Maybe one day
I can find the good
in his goodbye
although it was never said.
Nov 15, 2017
Nov 15, 2017 at 5:19 PM UTC
*
Everything I do,
Everything I change
I try
so many different things
as the day begins,
all my efforts go down
as sun sets.
I lose interest
and feel so much dismay,
the boredom
the worthlessness.
Internally I get the feeling of unexplained grief
it doesn't go away
I do not know the origin of this feeling
but it slowly feasts on me
consumes me
and I lose this game everyday.
*
Nov 15, 2017
Nov 15, 2017 at 5:18 PM UTC
It's late again and the room is dim
with candle lights taking over the night.
I'm swallowed in this empty space
counting the days.
How many moons must pass by
before I finally can fall asleep?
She no longer
is enough.
I've grown old.
I've grown slow.
I find my time lost in memories,
but I think it's now my turn to find someone
who looks at me like I'm glittering.
Show me the way,
Show me the signs,
I'm forgetting how to read.
Will I win,
Will, I walk,
I've seen this road before.
I've just never made it down to the end.
Luckily, the stars saw my grief and made amends with me.
They've kept me in the dark for so long,
and now are finally guiding me
through this terrain.
Through this rain.
Through the night.
Until I find someone who can carry me back
to the candle lights.
Nov 12, 2017
Nov 12, 2017 at 4:10 PM UTC
My depression is a figure
made of smoke.
It wraps itself around me
and suffocates me.
But I can't grasp it.
I only claw at my skin
as I try to make it release its grip.
It fogs my mind
until there is nothing left.
It filters through my being
until I'm left feeling empty.
It covers me like a blanket at night,
but this blanket doesn't comfort me.
It restricts me
and replays everything
I've done wrong.
Nov 12, 2017
Nov 12, 2017 at 4:10 PM UTC
My chest has been hurting
And I don't know if it's
A medical issue or an
Emotional issue.
Nov 10, 2017
Nov 10, 2017 at 2:58 AM UTC