An error occurred
in my clear vision
I stand blurred
Though feeling hopeful
my heartbeat despaired
despite my forward steps
the path erased
The knowledge acquired
from these effortful years
suddenly failed
I stand and breathe
but inside
my being is impaired
My voice I can speak
without it being heard
All the trophies I gained
are my loss
the only thing that remained
Misguided again
by my well- set watch
enduring compass
and my intuition torch
My knees are trembling
my hands are shaking
from all the asking
myself is lost
Mar 14, 2017
Mar 14, 2017 at 7:38 AM UTC
Time
How it moves
Inside me
Dragging my soul
Outside
The boundaries
The fortifications
That have been laying there
For centuries
Forever abandoned
Forever beaten
I accept defeat
I'll rise like the Sun
That was taken down
Forever
Reigning the skies
Again and again
My heart
My captain
Will face fear
With polished armor
My love
My sword
You
My King
Forever
At my side
Still
Beyond Time
Forever mine
Oct 19, 2016
Oct 19, 2016 at 6:32 AM UTC
Love sustains/through tough waves/in dreams of fire/abandon the safe/in reality of crushing/on the ground/where pain lays/I prefer the anguish/of trouble and scars/than years of empty/feelings of must/love sustains/because if real/it comes with no mind/straight from the core/of the heart /the feelings unfold/and these are the stories/that deserve to be told
Jun 24, 2016
Jun 24, 2016 at 8:37 AM UTC
Unidentifiable
The road back home
Innocence
Once was my skin
Effortlessly
Now a struggle
Under the microscope
My feelings
My mind
Incomprehensible
How deep
Lightly
It is applied
Upon me
Now
Innocence
Returns home
As if it never left
I am sure
I switched off
The lights
Of sobriety's
Doorway
The mind wonders
Why
How
Miracle!
Wonderful!
Unquestionable
It is back.
To stay.
The sweetest sin
Is
My
Return
Home
To
Innocence
Apr 22, 2016
Apr 22, 2016 at 2:01 PM UTC
How strange it is
now that your love
has left my body -
my heart feels empty
The throbbing of my veins
that signified your heartbeat -
has silenced
The tears that came out
like raging salty rivers from my eyes -
have now dried
Your eyes that used to hide
behind my eyelids and into my ***** -
are now shut
The sun that used to rule
my spirit and inspiration -
has now hid
The words that used to flow
like the endless sea -
have halted
The world has sat still
Time moves no more
It gets lost into the
abyss of the universe
Apr 18, 2016
Apr 18, 2016 at 5:05 PM UTC
You have gone
Withdrawn your presence -
I have cried alone
In the fields of a dome
For days, weeks, months -
I have walked so long
Staring up at your throne
Feeling so small -
Your violets, a violent thorn
Overpowering my sky
Imposing pain
In the ability of my eye
In awe I gazed up bereft
Decomposed I laid down -
Pieces fell from right to left
I wore hatred of myself as a gown
My words hurt my comfort
With which love is born
So –
I release the effort
and move on
When I stepped in
To end the pain
My presence called the rain
It washed and cleaned the dryness
It soothed the edges
Released the harness
Polished the past
I felt it moving again within me
Pushing and throbbing -
The love was winning
You left but are here
In the silence that I carry
Alone I can hear
Your heart is inside
Has never stopped
To linger and abide
Different strange shape
Unlike what I have known
I welcome the change -
And carry on
Mar 29, 2016
Mar 29, 2016 at 8:56 AM UTC
No more conflict my love
No more fear of losing whilst winning
No more separation from the essence of my heart
You are there
and always will be...
A beacon of light,
A force of unravelling the veil of my fearful shame
A force of breathing the forgotten beauty of my existence
A feeling of gratefulness
for appearing out of the core of the earth
Just for me
Just for me
I will hold you as my secret keepsake
Never forget you
Always search for your eyes
Mar 29, 2016
Mar 29, 2016 at 8:50 AM UTC
Out of the dark
Into the sun
My window of perception
It changed behind the burning view
A death, a resurrection
And no one knows what lies beyond
It seems, it feels, it listens
There
Beyond the constant few
That wither with intention
I lay as if of marble
Bright
And still
And built
And heavy
Silently watch the past go deep
Into the whole of empty
My glory faded fast
And gloriously it lingered
Upon a future that went deep
Into the heart’s contentment
Mar 29, 2016
Mar 29, 2016 at 8:44 AM UTC
How strange it is
now that your love
has left my body -
My heart feels empty.
The throbbing of my veins
that signified your heartbeat,
has silenced.
The tears that came out
like raging salty rivers
have now dried.
Your eyes that used to hide
behind my eyelids
and into my *****
are now shut.
The sun that used to rule
my spirit and inspiration,
has now hid.
The words that used to flow
like the endless sea
have halted.
The world has sat still.
Time moves no more.
It gets lost into the
abyss of the universe.
Mar 29, 2016
Mar 29, 2016 at 8:31 AM UTC
There is no love –
No love is there
Silently
Where I stand
In the promontory
On wet sand
I am erasing traces
Of a hurtful past
Agonized -
By a future that races
And ever ends up last
My mind's a vicious Other
Wants to end the road
Forsake -
Deny my heart's desire
Choke it with a rope
I stand strong willed
Against it
Time I'll bring to nil
For I ll use it as a healer
Whatever's left between
After the sorting's over
I’ll take a solemn breath
Reveal the dusty cover
Examine what is left -
From trust and commitment
After the horrid theft
For time deprives
True vision
If left outside the hives
The sun will cleanse the reason
I stand behind two lives
There I ll see the clear light
That shines eternal truth
My questions will be answered
I will have served my do's
The wind will gust acceptance
Embracing all the love
Becoming the abundance
That I’ve been praying for
Out from the earth I’ll ripen
I will be reborn
My Past and all the future
Entwined, forever even
Never again be torn
Mar 27, 2016
Mar 27, 2016 at 5:46 PM UTC