tracey-marie-lawrence
im alone everyday with a past that i cant say. fighting a depressed life. trying to avoid pain and strife. i dont have any friends and what you call a freak. thats what they call me. and i dont really speak. i keep quiet. and im always sad. wishing for a life that i never had.
flawless like a dear
Drinking at a lake in the clear
On the lime grass.. Steady here
Free in peace
No shots no fear
raised in shadows
In dark and cold
Lost something precious
Lost what was stole
now we live alone
Pain and stiff down to the bone
like a car driving in and out of cones
one knocked over
test is over
failed and bailed on a challenge to start over
Big cold shoulder
Heavy like a solider
Respect was lost
Like a stage of maze
never named but repaid
dirt and shovel
Dirt and *****
killed by the solider
died by his blade
look at the mess we made?
Dec 3, 2014
Dec 3, 2014 at 5:58 PM UTC
real love? whats ... real love? ..... do you have real love? .... what is real love ? yo his eyes are on my eyes .. not down my shirt or on my thighs his hands on my waist .... then he hugs me tight while your man takes you to bed... that ain't loving ... just free for all F***ing love is like a windmill.. never ends but keeps on spinning Yours is like a op-shop ... brought second hand .... no love... sold on the spot you girls deserve better.. you deserve the lot... not *** in a car park.... or street corner spot ... thats not real love... truly its not respect yourself.. and your feelings don't try to please... its not worth the living settle down ... and wait for real love not some quick dip ... ahead in the road stud real love is being the real you becoming a perfect two with the boy of your choose don't sell yourself short thinking you have nothing to lose just be you !
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 7:58 PM UTC
A girl walks alone Foot prints berried in the snow Single tears warm her cheeks ****** to silence ; never speaks With every stranger that she meets, hands flowing punching out rhythms to a beat Strangers look but can't reply Strangers give paper and pen and (sigh) Little girl writes , waits for reply Walked off alone , calling out for a mother who is not home Cold feet and shaking bones Little girl lost in a battle zone Fighting for her life With hope to get back home Calling out for a mother who is not home... A girl walks drenched in rain But not even rain can wash away the pain No food for days , losing her ways Hands flowing less fluently Stuck in a maze Been walking for days No stranger knows her pain calling for a mother.. that has now been gone for days
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 6:03 PM UTC
Tell my why we depend on the word ''sorry''
To recover broken bonds and heal lost glory ?
But i'm here to tell you its just a word
It does not change anything to the person hurt
''sorry'' does not bring the people back berried in the dirt
or the people from suicide ...hidden cuts under long sleeved shirts
I'm here to tell you its not the way... to be truly sorry it would not have happened in the first place.
but yet that is what us humans say
the easy way out is the path we all take
to get away from tough breaks and big shakes
cowards is the word i lay ... and its safe to say that is the title on your cage
full of rage ? but you think you can turn the page start again ?
only one life one chance
one start one stop
one leave one drop
one live one die
you fall no way to re-try
and no even sorry can take it back
bring back
or forgive in !
now go get a life
an actual life and don't bother in forgiving
because sorry is just a word people use to be trying
but the fact they really don't care there just lying
sorry don't bring back the dead i aint lying
that word is meaningless
so why do we use it ?
why we trying?
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 6:12 PM UTC
you can hate me - but you wont break me
you can push me - but you cant stop my hope
you can call me names - but it wont shatter my self pride
you can make my life hell- but i will make it heaven
you can be the devil- ill be the angel
you can be the net - and ill be the dolphin
you can be my enemy
you can be the dark- and i will be the light
you can be the storm- and i will be the sun
you can be the flood- and i will be the drain
you can be the snake- and i will be the mouse
you can be my enemy
you can take my heart- and i will not seek it out
you can take my stuff- and i will not ask for it back
you can punch me hard- and i wont hurt you back
you can damage my skin- but i wont care at all
you can drown me at the river - and i wont struggle to breath
you can be my enemy
yes you can be my enemy
the one that dont understand me
the one who has low self of steam
you can be my enemy
Oct 28, 2014
Oct 28, 2014 at 12:42 AM UTC
People be hating
by the words that im saying
By the truth that im laying
Shut up if you don’t like what im saying
All them boys be misbehaving
And then girls be over thinking
With drugs and underage drinking
What the hell is this generation thinking?
Getting messed up out of condition
Taking on infliction By man or woman
that’s no tradition
It makes me sicken.
From what people be doing
Turning into villains wising to be killing
Wishing it be different…. Back and forth missing
People been teasing And many needing pleasing
So sick of all you people full of greed
Think of someone elses needs
Now take a seat And watch what I speak
This is what I preach
Oct 28, 2014
Oct 28, 2014 at 12:41 AM UTC
I went down
Down to hell
Down to hell
Is were i fell
Were i go
To sell my soul away
Next will be my heart
It was broken anyway
lonely in the darkness
is were it struggles to breath
helpless and destroyed
is were you left me
the state im in is ugly
and that is how i feel
used and abused
broken in two.
Oct 9, 2014
Oct 9, 2014 at 6:33 PM UTC
Like the world i love is shaking
And my heart is slowly breaking
My tears go on and on
So depressed been that way
I don't know how long
Hurt myself so many times
Makes me wonder why im still alive
These bruises on my skin
Tend to mark my soul within
Like tattoos they never fade
All this sadness
going on for a decade
But still the word turns on and on
And the love i had has gone
And the tears i once cried
Have left and dried
So this is how i feel
Wouldn't expect you to care
No big deal
Sep 16, 2014
Sep 16, 2014 at 10:08 PM UTC
as a solider i march in the dark
without a soul
without a heart
without your lips
pressed up against mine
your on my mind all day all the time
but still you lie
and pushed me away
so i march like a solider
in the darkness
of my day
there is no light
nothing that shines bright
i have no need to go to bed
to think of you
to rest my head
instead ill cry
and drown in all these tears
ive kept this pain
in my heart all these years
so you finally need to know
that your the reason i never show
your the reason i march in the dark
without a soul
without a spark.
Sep 8, 2014
Sep 8, 2014 at 6:58 PM UTC
sitting on the floor
wanting you back
wanting you more
feeling of tears all over my face
Then my eyes go blurry
as the tears slide down my face
the salty little tears
finally caress my lips
as they drop to the floor
i cry a little more
and i hold myself tight
sobbing through the night
with his picture held to my chest
its all those memory's that i miss best
i hold it a little tighter
and the glass it starts to crack
slowly starting to shatter
i quickly lean back
glass is on the floor
glass is in my skin
taking on little piece
digging it in my skin
only love can hurt
hurt so much like this
cut so deep in
inside my wrist
the blood flows out
flows out just like my tears im finally letting go
of this love and my fears.
Sep 7, 2014
Sep 7, 2014 at 10:58 PM UTC