and no one could tell us that we were wrong,
because we were happy, and we were strong.
We were possibly stupid, because all thoughts were gone.
Lost in something that seemed like magic,
we also lost ourselves,
only a little bit but a little bit nevertheless.
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 4:09 PM UTC
It's not where you come from
It's not where you've been
It's not your bad choices
Nor the guilt that flushes in
It's not the people staring
Nor the thoughts in your head
It's not the voices saying
That you're better off dead.
It's the people that's around you
The people that you know
It's the songs that's on repeat
And the poems you read alone
It's the sun rising in the morning
And it's the raindrops splashing to the ground
It's the love that which surrounds you
And the home that you have found.
Nov 25, 2016
Nov 25, 2016 at 9:19 AM UTC
They always ask me what I wanna do
Then they use the big words
"Future" and "happy", sometimes "passion".
Almost always in the same sentence.
What do I wanna do?
"Good question", I say.
Then my thoughts wander on
Mostly they go something like; I want to scream.
I want to scream my lungs out,
Scream until the air is gone,
My insides punctured,
and my breath is lost.
I know some people know partly what their answer is.
But I don't. How am I supposed to know
How am I supposed to have any idea what my future is going to look like
When my present, my today is so lost.
When I am so lost.
Nov 15, 2016
Nov 15, 2016 at 6:06 PM UTC
I have no interest in
hearing your apologizing words,
seeing your sorry eyes,
feeling your hand on my shoulder.
You had no interest in
showing me compassion,
thinking twice or
leaving your backstabbing knife alone.
So I'm leaving my poetic words at home,
there's really just two words that fit:
**** you.*
Oct 9, 2016
Oct 9, 2016 at 4:23 PM UTC
Who knew
That we would end up like this
A giant rollercoaster that for a while only went up
I’ve never felt so high
I’ve never felt so good
Who knew
This rollercoaster suddenly would turn
I guess,
Everything that goes up has to come down
Every high has a come down
Who knew
That one year ago
One month ago
I was in love with you
I still am
But now I’m not even your second choice
Your B-team
Who knew
We would end up like this
Damaged, broken, ****** up
Once upon a time we were good
We were great, to be honest
Who knew…
Sep 30, 2016
Sep 30, 2016 at 3:46 PM UTC
It aches,
It hurts,
And it breaks my heart and soul,
To see your face,
hear your voice,
Turn around and realise to my despair,
That you arent there,
Not anymore.
The waves of guilt and pain,
That comes washing in,
Sometimes makes me numb,
Sometimes almost, dare I say,
Finishes me off.
When I think of you,
Your being,
Your smile,
I feel lost,
I feel regret,
I feel sorrow.
And may I say, even though it’s too late
I’m sorry
Jul 25, 2016
Jul 25, 2016 at 5:05 PM UTC
i'm mad at myself
for not changing to who i should be.
i'm mad at myself
for trusting people
whenever they say "trust me".
i'm mad at myself
for bleeding
when people stab my back
with their deceiving knives.
i'm mad at myself
for hiding my feelings
for pushing people away
when i needed them the most.
i'm mad at myself
for not being me
i changed a lot
i don't even know what's real.
i'm mad at myself
for being heartless
i used to be so sensitive
but i just cannot feel any less.
Jul 25, 2016
Jul 25, 2016 at 5:03 PM UTC
They say the eyes are the gates to the soul, to the heart
But when I look into your eyes, I only drown
They're a mystery, an ocean
You're a mystery
Your soul is secret, you heart is hidden
And I only drown in the beauty that is you
May 3, 2016
May 3, 2016 at 4:11 PM UTC
What am I to do,
when the painful storms in my head,
my heart,
my life,
controls me?
Mar 5, 2016
Mar 5, 2016 at 2:41 PM UTC
I don't think I understand
the concept of friends
the concept of loved ones
the face you can talk to in hard times
the place you can call home
the home which lies in a person
I don't think I understand
what it is to have a home
because whenever I find it
whenever my heart starts to heal
I always seem to run away
Mar 2, 2016
Mar 2, 2016 at 1:42 PM UTC