I love you so quietly.
Like a wound
no one can see.
You send me pictures
of jokes
of friends
of your life
and I sit there
pretending like my heart
isn’t tearing itself apart
inside my chest.
You'll never know.
How badly I want you.
How badly I would love you.
How I would hold every broken part of you
like it was sacred.
I would choose you
every single time.
But I can’t even tell you that.
Because you could never love me back.
Because God himself
already decided
that you could never be mine.
And yet
I still love you.
Quietly.
Pathetically.
Endlessly.
I love you so much
it makes me angry at my own face.
At my body.
At the sound of my own name.
Because how could someone like you
ever look at someone like me
and feel anything at all?
You're like sunlight.
Radiating light
from that beautiful smile of yours.
And I hide from my own shadow.
You are so beautiful
without even trying.
Without even knowing.
And I am standing here
waiting for something
that is never going to come.
Wanting something
that was never meant for me.
And that's the cruelest part.
Not the fact that
I love you.
But the fact that
I always will.
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 3:02 PM UTC
I see pieces of you.
In her eyes
And in her smile.
I hear pieces you.
In her laugh
And in her voice.
I catch pieces of you.
In the look in her eyes
when she looks at me.
Even in the streets
I find pieces of you.
In the faces of people
That I'll never see again.
You're like a puzzle.
Pieces of you everywhere
But never the whole picture.
You aren’t her.
And she isn’t you.
But you
Don't exist.
Except as pieces in my head
That I keep mistaking
For something that's true.
May 6
May 6, 2026 at 1:51 PM UTC
Never thought I would love a boy,
He made me laugh, a rare noise,
A breathless giggle, raw and real,
My voice forgot how to feel.
Then he dated our best friend,
Unknowing how long I'd defend
His name, a secret in my soul,
Each note he wrote,
my heart paid a heavy toll
Then
I liked a girl.
Who could have known?
Thought safe hearts should stay alone,
Yet she arrived a storm so bright,
She made me smile just by her light.
Her eyes held more than polite grace,
She touched my hand,
then held the space,
A gentle brush of toe and smile,
Her laugh preceded me by a mile.
I thought maybe she felt it too?
That something deep could bloom anew.
I told myself “I have more days…”
To speak the words in tender ways.
But Pennsylvania claimed her first,
Before I spoke the feelings’ thirst,
Now in quiet,
I confess too late
These whispered words
can’t change her fate.
Mar 19
Mar 19, 2026 at 3:21 PM UTC
thank God
i have poetry
without it
i would be nothing
without it
i would sink into myself
and find no outlet
for my overflow
thank God
there is
a release valve
Mar 17
Mar 17, 2026 at 3:29 PM UTC
Talking in my sleep
It's terrifying me
I'm tortured every night
I'm frozen in my dreams
I built this wall so I
Could keep my pain inside
But it takes over me
I'm talking in my sleep
Feb 16
Feb 16, 2026 at 4:52 PM UTC
Heavy as a boulder
My body sits on this chair
My head
My shoulders
My eyes
My heart.
They're so heavy
I cant bear it.
Let my bones crack
Let them crumble and shatter
Under this pain
Because I cant take it anymore
Jan 22
Jan 22, 2026 at 3:38 PM UTC
I don't sleep to rest
I sleep to dream
and somehow
every dream
leads to me back to her
Jan 19
Jan 19, 2026 at 3:11 PM UTC
why can't i hate you?
maybe because im still in the shirt i wore
when you held me so tight
i could feel it for hours after
and i could still smell your perfume?
maybe because when i put my arms around myself
all i feel is your arms?
maybe because when i lie down on my side
i hear a heartbeat that isn't mine,
one that isn't really there?
i can't hate you.
Jan 8
Jan 8, 2026 at 3:30 PM UTC
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
See
Each time
It's just
Not enough
To show
My love for you
Jan 6
Jan 6, 2026 at 2:48 PM UTC