Poeple are blinded by this so- called fate
Believing they're destined and started to date
But to know the outcome, we have to wait
For there is a thin line between love and hate.
Love comes in the right place and time
And the persons in it are the right ones
But what if it comes in wrongly?
Should we considered it too as accidentally?
People say there always a red strings attached
For those people whom heaven matched
But how can we say if she or he is the one?
If all the signs we asked, we received none.
I had to admit I am still confused
On how to defend my love beliefs and values
Love comes hate, right with wrong
These ideas linger on me for so long.
My brain keeps thinking
While my heart still beating
I have to continue my answer-seeking
Even though I am just guessing
Love is complicated but still believing
Life is worth living and
Love is worth fighting.
-shakazaqui
May 10, 2018
May 10, 2018 at 10:36 PM UTC
I am dying inside
But no one noticed
I keep on smiling
To hide those tears.
I thought I found myself
Why I am so displeased?
Sometimes I wonder
Why do I exist?
I keep on insisting to myself to stay positive
I end up thinking those negative
I fought so hard to cast or hide my demons
And yet they whisper they won't
They're building their empire inside my heart
And a little time left to start conquering my soul.
I want to find myself, but I am not lost
I want to save myself, but am I drowning?
I want to help myself, but how?
I want to love myself, now.
-shakazaqui 12/12/17
Mar 9, 2018
Mar 9, 2018 at 10:15 PM UTC
Waking up with a ghost
The girl that matter to him the most
The bittersweet feeling he has
Can I mend his aching heart at last?
I came back not knowing why
Knowing he can see me, I must not cry
Maybe I just got an unfulfilled wish
Or I just want to eat a dish.
I tried to make my friends see me
For them to know I am here
But every time I tried, no result.
They don't believe Jinta, it's an insult.
I know my time is little
I found out our bonds turned brittle
Secret feelings make us scattered
And everyone in the group surrendered.
While I did my best to mend
Time running fast and it's the end
One last time I know what to do
To rescue my friends from their ego.
To fulfill my wish, now I know
All of them are okay, it's time to go
Tears running in everyone's eyes
Now I can say no more lies.
To Tsuruko, be gentle
To Yukiatsu, work hard
To Poppo, continue to be funny
To Anaru, always be wise
To Jinta, my love, thanks to you
I have proven to myself something
That even though I am dead
I still got that "I want to marry you".
---shakazaqui 12-6-17
Mar 9, 2018
Mar 9, 2018 at 10:00 PM UTC
When pain seems unbearable
When life seems to end
When you suffered too much
And no one cared.
When you became alone
Not forever but for so long
When your heart gets broken
And no one can mend.
When efforts go unnoticed
Or when you were pre-judged
And crying is the solution
In the situation you cannot adjust.
When time is lost and you realized
That heavy blaming they have post on you
had scarred your heart.
Even trials are just passing by
Still your heart is fragile
So don't worry and cry.
---shakazaqui (12-01-17)
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 7:22 PM UTC
My thoughts were divided,
myself were made into two.
I don't know what happened
between me and you.
I cling on you like I was a child,
longing for a mother's love.
I can't deny what I feel inside,
'coz I really think you are my love.
My life was shattered
when I remembered my past
My memories that were scattered
were returned to me at last!
When I came to you, I was hurt,
I was slapped by the truth.
That you can't remember me
No matter what I do.
My heart was crushed.
All I think about is you.
And I know it is rushed,
but I want you to acknowledged me too
If this is revenged, so be it
But remember, I don't want to quit
If I loose myself for you to remember, so be it
Afterall, being forgotten hurts a little bit.
---shakazaqui 11-27-17
Feb 6, 2018
Feb 6, 2018 at 9:11 PM UTC
I am a woman, but no ordinary one
Beautiful, talented, cheerful and young
Everyone admires me
But they don't know about me.
I got dark past and I am being haunted by it everyday.
I need someone.
I need a savior.
I need love.
And then I fell in love.
All i think of is him.
I know he's weak.
And yet I chose him.
I can do anything for him.
Even ****
I can. I will. I must.
I'll do it for him, for us.
And yet at the end of the day, still I can't get him?
Still, he doesn't love me.
Why?
Why did it turn out like this?
I was broken.
And yet I chose to fight 'till the end.
Is this all worth it?
I don't know.
I don't want to ask.
I will just do what I can.
With this broken heart I will love.
With this ****** mind I will learn,
With this fragile hand I will fight.
For you.
For me.
For us.
---Shakazaqui 11-27-17
Feb 5, 2018
Feb 5, 2018 at 9:23 PM UTC
Yesterday I was an artist
I could understand art
Today I forgot everything
Where should I start?
Now I longed for an art
Not to become artist again
But to put colors in my life
For art is very rare
And sometimes people just don't care.
-shakazaqui
Feb 5, 2018
Feb 5, 2018 at 8:26 PM UTC