How gut wrenching it is
To know
How many sunsets I missed
Because I was angry
How many sunrises I missed
Because I was sad
And all the clouds in between
Because I didn’t care
Oct 23, 2024
Oct 23, 2024 at 6:31 PM UTC
Water’s scorching
Caressing my spine
Wounding me, a thousand hornet stings
Do not flinch
Only move closer
Temperature rises
Embracing the pain
This is how it remains hidden
Out of sight
-my secret to keep
Oct 23, 2024
Oct 23, 2024 at 6:31 PM UTC
it starts off small
the noise does
the longer I stare
the louder it gets
the hungrier i become
the less I want to eat
i’m worried all the time
like if I start, I can’t stop
if I don’t, then I won’t have to
-it controls my life
and now I’m scared
when I have to
it’s very little
hardly any, to none at all
the trick is always staying busy
the busier I am
the quieter the noise
which eventually fades
in to nothing at all
-the hardest habit to break
is the easiest ritual to follow
Oct 23, 2024
Oct 23, 2024 at 6:30 PM UTC
one line at a time
more addicting than coke
-i deserve this
this is my punishment
-for my cruelty
my self inflicted pain
scheduled payment
‘tis my debt
owed to karma
she’s more relentless
than a mortgage broker
she knocks three times
-at no specific time
always unannounced
makes herself at home
-so much so
that I feel like a stranger
to my own homestead
-lifelong debt
Oct 23, 2024
Oct 23, 2024 at 6:29 PM UTC
my skin burns like dry ice
being branded by the history
-of every mistake I’ve ever made
“when does it end?”
“where does it stop?”
if it’s forever
hang it around me like a noose
put me out of my agony
-this suffocation is unbearable.
Oct 23, 2024
Oct 23, 2024 at 6:28 PM UTC
stiff as a board on a dock
skin burning like ice
tears flowing as heavy as rain
begging and pleading
how can there be a God
when I suffer in silence so loud
-it shakes the peace out of heaven
the feeling of disgust
covers my body like a sweltering sheet
I scrub my skin raw
until it bleeds profusely
I relive it in my nightmares
other times, flashbacks
-I can’t help but feel I deserve it
I feel so unworthy
it would have been easier
if he had just killed me
compared to having to live
-just to die every time I wake up
Oct 23, 2024
Oct 23, 2024 at 6:26 PM UTC
i am nothing
short of a rage room
for those who cannot
cope and heal
they come
they release
-they leave
Oct 23, 2024
Oct 23, 2024 at 6:25 PM UTC
Fades in passing, ashtray swarms so fast
Glass makes contact with glass
Collisions echo loud
For, each future of myself can hear
Not enough time to warn
all infinite —-
Oct 23, 2024
Oct 23, 2024 at 6:25 PM UTC
a candle with such a small flame
has the opportunity to shine
brighter than ever
when oxygen is generously
-shared
Oct 23, 2024
Oct 23, 2024 at 6:24 PM UTC
seeds, so small
light as a feather
each one, represents
-second chances
perseverant and resilient
tenacity shows strength and ability
to thrive in harshest of conditions
giving opportunity to create
-an amorist
nothing short of a belesprit
an auric flower such
as yourself
you are the quintessence
of all things kind, patient, and sweet
-effortless gentleness
in awe at your ability to be
virile, and yet remain gentle
i enjoy being in this place with you
-esoteric
Oct 23, 2024
Oct 23, 2024 at 6:23 PM UTC