Light,
that is what I will be from now on
I will tread lightly on your soul,
to avoid leaving footprints on your heart
and you will thank me later
Jun 29, 2014
Jun 29, 2014 at 12:33 PM UTC
Tell me how your storm goes.
Have you ever suffered?
If so have you gotten better?
Or haven't you recovered.
Jun 29, 2014
Jun 29, 2014 at 12:31 PM UTC
Calloused fingertips singed
From smoking this blunt to its end
I can feel the sting run up my arm
Heavy hands on the neck of my guitar
And suddenly I'm singing
"Is it tomorrow already?"
The past 24 have been deeply upsetting
Anxieties borne from reality
Come creeping into my dream life
My subconscious bank account
Is down to $125
I wake up to my alarm
Phantom sting still in my arm
Jun 16, 2014
Jun 16, 2014 at 5:07 PM UTC
Sometimes it's like I'm suffocating
Sometimes it's like I'm falling
Sometimes it's like I'm trapped in darkness with my head under water, drowning
But mostly it's like I'm flying so I'm okay with it
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 2:04 PM UTC
You cannot hide from what is to come
Whether you know it's coming or not
But to know not of what is to come
Is a true blessing,
As knowing your fate
Leaves only space to wait
And waiting, is not living
But rather an inescapable torture
You cannot hide from the inevitable.
Jun 9, 2014
Jun 9, 2014 at 2:49 AM UTC
"So what does depression feel like"
It feels like trying to run through the sand after you have just climbed out of the ocean.
Like trying desperately to hang on to the merry-go-round spinning out of control.
Like struggling to keep your head above water in a wave pool.
Like trying to climb up a steep slide and slipping down just as you almost reach the top.
Like gasping for air after you've had the wind knocked out of you.
Like having a crush on life knowing life will never like you back.
Do you understand now?
Jun 5, 2014
Jun 5, 2014 at 7:00 AM UTC
From a young age
I have been advised to recognize my
Feelings
To know why I feel
To know what I feel
And I am grateful for this advice
Because through awareness I have found control
But now I'm too aware of how I feel
To let you know
Jun 5, 2014
Jun 5, 2014 at 3:41 AM UTC
How am I to take care of you,
Take care of us,
When you live life in such a rush.
I can't fix myself and your addiction,
It just adds on to my affliction.
And I'm the only one who cares.
The only one who stares
Truth in the face.
I'm done putting your desires in place.
Tonight you looked me in the eye,
And told me to accept some lie,
To listen to your sad escape,
And expect me to accept this fate.
I am dying in your sad attempt
To forget your weakness and leave you exempt,
From consequence.
And I'm expected to love you.
Expected to just trudge through
This mess.
I'm so angry I could just explode,
Concern myself with how you erode
And let yourself burst up into flame.
While I stand still alone to blame.
This is why I cannot leave,
Alone and lost, left to believe
This garbage you call love and honesty.
In death I find my truth and peace,
I can't erase this life I lease.
But I'm **** near cause and effect,
This cause your pain, deflect
The rest.
I would but nought to die before
This life you let fly and to soar,
To my defeat and this weak roar.
I'll **** myself to flee the poor
And sick excuse you call a lie,
Into those clouds I wish to fly.
You're selfish.
My anguish.
I'd bring to death those you call trust
And sacrifice this pathetic lust.
In the corner of the bathroom stall,
Fighting this fight against your brick wall.
You told me to accept who you are,
But this young man is far too far
From who I once loved and believed.
I'm done being beaten and deceived.
I would **** for you.
This truth may be the only brew
I'll let you have again.
May 22, 2014
May 22, 2014 at 3:40 PM UTC