I downed this big *** bottle of wine
in a small hope to get you off my mind
but your ******* smile man
that **** has me on cloud nine
all. the. time.
your world is scary I'll admit
not sure if you're friends or family
would accept the idea of me
or let me in
just crash into me
in a boy's dream
in a reality
I'm bare ***** here you know,
I'm crazy for you
you put a glow into my eyes
and the happiness that lacks at home
something I thought I had
something I thought I'd know
Makes me cry tears of joy and sadness all the same
I don't want to hurt anyone
but I can't help what I've gained
So what do I do with it all?
What do I do with you?
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 10:18 PM UTC
Keep breaking my heart,
it'll only make my writing
better
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 2:10 PM UTC
I remember when
when we used to be happy
when your face would light up
with your amazing smile
your eyes would sparkle
i could tell
everyone could
we were truly happy
the downfall broke us
it broke both of us
i hated it
but now youre with her
your face
is dull
lifeless
the smile
i fell inlove with
was no longer present
everyone could see the difference
i dont even know you anymore
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 2:08 PM UTC
It’s been three and a half months since we last spoke,
really spoke, not just guilty hellos
and scattered half-hearted pleas
And it’s not you, it’s never you
it’s me it’s me it’s me,
but you love
me
you love
me
you love
me
And my head has forgotten what it feels like,
but I know my heart is safe with you
Because you’ve never stopped chasing after me
and I’m tired of looking at my feet, telling myself
I’ll be okay without you, trying to navigate
through a thick forest at night,
pretending I don’t have matches at
my fingertips
You are the only thing
that has ever made me feel truly whole
I’m sorry I’ve kept my eyes shut so tight,
but I’m here now and I love you and I miss you
And I don’t want to keep living
like fragments of a person anymore
I’m Yours.
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 2:08 PM UTC
I stand at your grave and weep
As the sorrow seeps through me
I imagine you here sitting at your own grave
Laughing at people that pretended to give a ****
And you know I'd love you forever
I just wish you would let me save you from this wrongful fate that is this 6 foot deep grave
Don't worry my love, I'll be buried next to you
It might not be today, tomorrow but eventually we'll be reunited
5 am and I'm already awake, stacked pillows pretending its you that's asleep but the coldness I feel makes it even worse
Your body temperature is nowhere to be felt
You would've laughed at someone if they told you I would be awake at 5am and say
"My baby never wake up before 10"
I lost my greatest love of the century
They write stories about you and me
But like Romeo and Juliet we also had our tragedy
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 10:20 AM UTC
It’s been ten months and six days,
The pain is still so fresh,
Every day it gets worse,
I never get pass that hill.
I just wish you were here to hold me;
when I cry myself to sleep every night,
On my best nights I lay in bed;
pretend your next to me,
But I open my eyes,
And I can’t go back.
I haven’t breathed a breath of life;
Haven’t felt the slightest pleasure,
Since the day you left this earth,
But you haven’t left my world;
You are my world,
You just somehow left me behind,
I try to let go of the past,
I find myself still holding on for dear life,
You’re the only thing worth keeping,
I wish I could go back,
There we live,
In all those memories,
That’s where I want to be with you.
I’d do anything,
Give anything up,
Just to have you in my arms again,
You made promises to me,
I swear you’re the worst pain,
I’d ever had the pleasure of keeping,
Now I’ll walk my whole life through,
Until I get to the gates to see you,
But until that day,
My heart will be beside you,
Grieving at your grave.
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 10:17 AM UTC
Are you thinking of another
While you're lying here with me
Is your mind out there cheating
wishing it were free
free to love another
while we lay here once again
Your body is here with me
But, your mind, it is with him
you came to me from someone else
you cheated once before
you thought of me while with him
because you wanted more
I gave you all I have to give
But, I know I've lost you to
Someone who thinks he's the one
And who knows not what you do
In all our time together
Were you cheating in your mind
Was I just a passing fancy
Until another you would find
Is the game the expectation
of what you'll get next time through
When you told me that you loved me
How much of that was true
You're cheating and I see it
There's no passion anymore
Am I a notch upon your bedpost
Adding one more to the score
Are you thinking of another
when you lie here in my bed
I may have you now in body
But I don't in heart or head
Are you thinking of another
While you're lying here with me
Is your mind out there cheating
wishing it were free
free to love another
while we lay here once again
Your body is here with me
But, your mind, it is with him
Aug 24, 2014
Aug 24, 2014 at 11:22 PM UTC
In only a few hours I will be on a plane,
traveling to a part of the world
that I've never been.
I can't help but to wonder if this place
will become my soul mate,
this city,
my groom.
Will I fall in love with the lights?
Will I dream of the noise?
Will I wish to stay there until I grow old?
Will I be willing to leave behind the walls of the suburbs that I've grown to loathe? Waking up to the same picture outside of my window. Going through the same motions everyday.
My life is a song on repeat.
The desire for change, the ache for adventure burns inside of me.
The world is a treasure to discover, and your scenery should never stay the same.
Maybe in this city I will find myself. After all, isn't that what we are all trying to do?
Jun 1, 2014
Jun 1, 2014 at 2:30 PM UTC