you can’t say that
you’ll be there, you’ll still care
and that nothing will change
because it does, it did,
and it always will.
i let you have a piece of me
and i left it there with you
the you that i knew in my 16th summer
but now it’s over
and i’m fighting for things
that are no longer there-
things i didn’t even want to begin with
yet i’m reaching, clawing, struggling…
you said it would work out
but you lied;
(i left and it didn’t)
Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 12:45 AM UTC
i am powerful and wicked
i strike men down with a sharp tongue
and harsh eyes
but you-
you leave me feeling
like a grain of sand in a dust storm
and i forget myself-
i forget
that i am the ruler
of my own feral heart
that you should be only a laborer…
but you’re more than that-
you’re ethereal
and what is a queen like me
to the deity that you are?
the angels in your eyes
and the gospels on your lips.
what is a ruler over men
to one who serves gods?
Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 12:43 AM UTC
sometimes i look around myself
and i don’t understand my surroundings.
i am not who they are
i am not who they wish i was,
what they want me to be
sometimes i look around myself
and it’s like i’m not even there
i am insignificant,
invisible,
not worth their time.
sometimes i look inside myself
and i hate what i see
Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 12:42 AM UTC
are you angry?
that my life not longer revolves around you?
that,
i’ve traded my longing for you in
for a real relationship
with someone else?
are you angry?
are you bothered?
that i finally know who i am
that i can finally exist
without you?
are you angry?
that i don’t dream about you anymore?
that your lips are someone else’s and
i wouldn’t have it any other way?
are you angry?
that i’m okay?
that i’ve grown up?
that i’ve moved on?
are you angry?
(good.)
Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 12:41 AM UTC
this is for you
when you lie because telling the truth never got you anywhere,
when you forgot to do your homework,
when your friends forgot to invite you,
when That One Kid thinks it’s hilarious to make you uncomfortable,
when you have a ****** audition,
when you have to make a Big Decision,
when someone else makes a Big Decision, and you come out on bottom,
when you feel like you aren’t everything you could be,
when you let your Grade Point Average define who you are,
when you finally get what you want, and people tell you that you don’t deserve it,
when you want to care, you really do, but you can’t,
when you don’t meet Their Expectations,
when you don’t have the spare cash to go see a movie,
when your prayers go unanswered,
when you try to create something beautiful and it ends up ****
this is for you
for when you aren’t what they
want,
deem acceptable,
or even deserve.
this is for you and all of your shortcomings
because we all have them.
Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 12:38 AM UTC
it’s ironic, isn’t it?
just my luck.
that i would find you here,
now;
a million miles away.
they say it is better
to have loved and lost
than never to have loved at all
but what about loving
and leaving?
what about loving
from a physical distance?
no one ever taught me
how to wait
Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 12:25 AM UTC