Have you ever thought
about the burden that a wall must have
holding a house together
even when the wind is blowing
and the storms come in
having to silently keep everything together?
Yes, there are other walls
that are there to support the house
but when those other walls give in
and aren’t holding their weight
what happens to the first wall?
The cracks begin to form
and even if it isn’t what the wall wants
one by one they begin to fall
the house is decimated
and the wall has no choice
but to go down with it.
Jan 24
Jan 24, 2026 at 4:00 AM UTC
I always thought the moment you came back
Would be the happiest I could be
But seeing your face again
and worse
hearing you say my name again
All it brings me is pain.
I’m reminded of the nights I spent crying alone
thinking, hoping, wishing for you to change your mind.
I’m reminded of every time you let me know
or made me feel
That I wasn’t enough.
I never thought I’d have the strength
to turn down what I once wanted
More than anything in the world.
I know now that in the end you’re the one who lost.
You will never get the chance to do it again.
Jan 24
Jan 24, 2026 at 3:45 AM UTC
I want you to be happy
But do you even know how to do that anymore?
A whole life …
Fighting
but no longer for each other.
Secrets …
Some real
some imagined
They all hurt the same.
Is it inevitable?
I’m not sure …
But suddenly
I see a clock
Counting down …
down …
down …
Why do I feel responsible?
There’s too much hurt to take …
I just want to fix things.
Please. Let me fix it.
Jan 24
Jan 24, 2026 at 1:38 AM UTC
and so you decided
to drive down to see
if you could find the end of the sunset
like you always dreamed
it hurt to watch the sky get dark
and know that the light took you with it
i could never chase the sunset.
instead i wait here, for the beautiful sunrise.
Feb 10, 2023
Feb 10, 2023 at 9:52 PM UTC
I remember when you told me
like it was yesterday
I remember that feeling
and I remember the way
I could barely breathe
Reality hit me in the face
I touch my cheek to feel
The sting is fresh and red
It was surreal
being knocked to the ground like that
I look for something to drown it in
but I'm left without it, choking down the pill
I'm nothing, nothing at all to you
and if it was your goal to ****
I'm dead, as I've always been to you.
Feb 10, 2023
Feb 10, 2023 at 9:45 PM UTC
I've never said those words out loud.
I've never felt those words, not truly.
But once they were spoken, they couldn't come back.
And those words were true when they left my mouth.
I knew you didn't feel the same way.
I knew that saying those words wouldn't change anything.
We both knew from the beginning
this wasn't a good idea.
If I hadn't spoken those words
Would I feel any better when I watched you leave?
Replaying over and over how I feel
I don't regret anything.
Feb 10, 2023
Feb 10, 2023 at 9:23 PM UTC
It never rained when we were together.
I realized this morning, when I woke up to the sound
Of soft raindrops splashing against my window.
I don't recall a time
When I would wake up to that gray, gloomy sky
While I was lying with you.
A day filled with sunshine
Has always been my favorite.
Warmth, light, and life fills the air.
But I realized that sunshine can be deceptive.
Hiding the burns, the exhaustion, and the pain
That screams for a change.
I lay back down and listen to the rain
The rhythmic water providing a fresh start
And I've never heard a more beautiful sound.
Feb 10, 2023
Feb 10, 2023 at 9:14 PM UTC
as i lay down
and stare at you in the dark
all i can wonder is why
why is so hard for me
to reach out
to lean on you for support
why do i guard myself
pretend i'm okay when i'm not
and hide away when you get too close
why can't i want more
for you to be mine
and me to be yours
why does it hurt
when you're away
and when you're here
Feb 2, 2022
Feb 2, 2022 at 9:31 PM UTC
one day it will happen
we'll share our last conversation
we'll laugh together one more time
we'll sit in a comfortable silence
we'll look to each other and smile
we'll get in one last fight
we'll say things we wish we never did
we'll storm away to be alone
we'll wait for the other to be the first to apologize
we'll cry to each other for the final time
we'll try to provide the support that we need
we'll hurt at the thought of each other in pain
we'll wish we could take it away
we'll look into each others eyes for the last time
we'll remember everything we've been through
we'll feel like it wasn't enough time
we'll hold on to each other forever
one day it will be the last
Feb 2, 2022
Feb 2, 2022 at 9:20 PM UTC
when you look at me
i feel like you see what's really there
i feel like you see through me
and it's terrifying.
i'm not sure why.
i feel a connection between us
but maybe it's just me.
but being with you makes me feel real.
i feel like i can tell you things
i only think about when i'm by myself.
like i don't have to be strong
or pretend i'm someone else.
it's a scary thought
that someone could know every part of you.
but maybe i'm starting to believe
that it wouldn't be so bad.
Nov 11, 2021
Nov 11, 2021 at 10:08 PM UTC