When I close my eyes
I can see his half
Smile half smirk
I can see his distant eyes
That somehow find me
I can hear his laugh
And feel his strength
I remember what life was like
When he was my
backbone
How much I laughed
How tall I felt
When I close my eyes
I can feel his weight
I can feel my heart panic
My skin remembers the trace
Of his finger tips and
And how all I could do was
Freeze in place
The air felt heavy and
My tears so light
Stop.
“It’s okay. I love you.”
Stop.
And then I open my eyes.
I love you too.
I love the version of you I knew
And the version I knew was hidden
I saw your souls and there was black
And parts are unexusable
You’re actions will not be dismissed
In a number of days
The gavel will click
And the metal will swing
But you should know
I loved you so
But it was never okay
May 22, 2018
May 22, 2018 at 4:37 PM UTC
I was chasing a girl
Who was chasing a thrill
Was I ?
I kissed her
I think she could taste the fear
Could she ?
I love her
She loves... Her
No question there
May 27, 2016
May 27, 2016 at 10:28 PM UTC
Therapists
Psychologists
Pill popping
Prescription lists
Cars pulling in
People coming out
Parents
Children
Strangers and friends
Love and hate
Painted across their face
Help
Give it take it
Here we are all vulnerable
A band on our arm
A mark on our face
Insecurities aren't invisible in a self help parking lot
Bulimics naw their lips in harmony
Depressed teens exchange empty glances
Worried parents sympathize in pen clicks
Anxiety covers us all in musical foot taps
we are all lost
we are all hurt
Unity
Is what I found
In the self help
Parking lot
Apr 18, 2016
Apr 18, 2016 at 8:20 PM UTC
i saw you the way an artist does
brilliant and bathed in holy fire
your scars
the strokes of a brush
your anatomy every medium
your smile
a photograph in
black and white
your lips
oil on canvas
your eyes
watercolor on paper
your hair
texture and dimension
on a portrait
you and i
an unfinished graffiti
an unorthodox art form
fleeting and reflective
but a masterpiece
nonetheless
Mar 18, 2016
Mar 18, 2016 at 4:01 PM UTC
Her heart is hers
But her hand was mine
In that stolen moment
We became intertwined
Every chance we could find
I found her skin and she found mine
Breathing steady
The pace never changed
We just loved
Like it was natural
To steal a moment
Where her heart was hers
But her touch was mine
I know she thinks of another
I know it's not only in one
She has found one of a kind
But for a night her love was mine
And my love was hers
In every touch
In every breath
In every glance
We dared to take
I know her heart is hers
I don't expect it to be mine
I have my own
With stolen moments
To keep it beating and alive
Mar 18, 2016
Mar 18, 2016 at 3:29 PM UTC
Gold streaks
Glittering in the sun
Blinding me
I want to hold her hand
Rest my head on her heartbeat
I want to see her laugh
Make her laugh
I want to kiss her cheek
So she knows it's not just her
Lips I seek
But all I see is gold
Beautiful gold
Running away from me
I want to love her
She makes me feel
Like the person I've
Always wanted to be
Gold
I'm entangled in gold
And I've never been more free
Jan 20, 2016
Jan 20, 2016 at 12:44 AM UTC
Come away with me
To the mountains?
To the sea ?
Come away with me
On an adventure?
Somewhere new?
Come away with me
She whispered
To the moon?
She didn't go anywhere
Not to the mountains
Not to the sea
No adventure
Nowhere new
She never even
Tried to touch
The moon
So where to?
Come away with me
In the deepest parts of my love
In the darkest places of my heart
To the endless expanse of thought
To the world inside
Don't move
Come away with me
She begged
To the place you never knew
Dec 13, 2015
Dec 13, 2015 at 1:24 PM UTC
summer nights
fairy lights
women rights
skinny tights
we ended up with
lovers' fights
plain as day
you took away
a sunshine ray
left me with
no words to say
feelings fade
a girl's parade
to hold her head high
and hide the mess you made
Dec 7, 2015
Dec 7, 2015 at 11:49 PM UTC
Scrolling through the feed
So much pain
Poems of the slain
Embrace your sadness
Revel in the anger
Cherish your happiness
Dance with danger
My friends it's only game
It's only a day
It's only forever
It's practically never
You'll be okay
We will all be okay
It's always and forever
Dec 7, 2015
Dec 7, 2015 at 11:44 PM UTC
That crooked smile
And those empty eyes
Get me every
******* time
Nov 27, 2015
Nov 27, 2015 at 11:46 PM UTC