The crescent moons of my
fingernails are set in my palms
permanently
and my feelings are splayed
across my face like a black eye.
Now I feel my teeth cracking
from my painfully clenched jaw
after holding back
everything that I can.
My body is breaking and I
am praying to anyone who
will listen that this
is the last time.
Jan 5, 2015
Jan 5, 2015 at 12:04 PM UTC
Your every word,
Every comma,
Every full stop,
Every quotation,
And every other punctuation-
They destroy my demons.
"There was never silence. Always was an endless buzzing of nonsense in my ear.
But you, as I realize now, were not talking about the absence of sound.
You were talking about the soul.
The silence of the soul.
The absence of peace.
Pain.
I've come to think that humans, as a race, cannot write about the subjects that bring them joy."
- Alyssa Rose©
Just a little excerpt
From a little collection of sentences,
Yet the impact knows no bounds.
Every poem that you write (at least the ones I've read),
They hold so much truth.
As dainty as your name,
Yet so much power they brew.
**"People we will never meet,
Faces we will never see.
Unbeknownst to us,
Wandering aimlessly."**
-Alyssa Rose©
The -words- above
And the l e t t e r s-
My exact thoughts last night,
8 days to December.
Once I get a hold of what you convey,
I find myself unable to let go;
Because the meaning that I discover,
Is not just what I portray.
When I read your work,
I feel at peace;
Like all the chaos within me
Has finally been eased,
Because you, Alyssa-
Are one of my only escapes.
And as I write this piece,
You don't even know
That someone like ME-
An average teenage girl,
Takes so much inspiration
From YOU❤️
Nov 24, 2014
Nov 24, 2014 at 12:24 PM UTC
The scariest thing
is not being able to trust your own mind.
It is my woeful enemy
shooting me from behind.
Filled with nerves and harsh thoughts
i battle salty streaks and stomach knots.
I have no appetite and get no sleep
maybe its why i seem and feel so weak.
And while i try to understand this corruption
the anxiety and depression continue their introductions.
So theres a reason my mind and heart weep
over my broken thoughts that run so deep.
My doctor tells me this is "common"
that "others have it and are doing awesome".
But even though i know the stats
it doesn't make me feel any less like shattered glass.
And at the end this monster will take over
its slowly growing and getting closer and closer.
So dear friend, watch out for your mind
or you'll end up with a monster who is incredibly unkind.
Nov 24, 2014
Nov 24, 2014 at 12:23 PM UTC
It's
fascinating how
at night, the moment my eyes
filter out reality, my blanket transforms
into a shield,
warding off all the spears that life hurls
towards me, only to shatter like
glass in the light of
tomorrow.
Nov 24, 2014
Nov 24, 2014 at 12:22 PM UTC
Sorry I'm such a burden.
But my depression can show up so sudden.
It comes an goes,
Sometimes when I fake that smile to the world,
I can fake out myself.
I think I'm happy sometimes.
But I never am.
Nov 24, 2014
Nov 24, 2014 at 12:22 PM UTC
a permanent frost
has become me
and no matter what i do
i have become
infinitely
eternally
cold
Nov 19, 2014
Nov 19, 2014 at 10:02 AM UTC
The dying flower
Wilting, rotting, crumbling
No one hears you fall
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 12:53 PM UTC
I can still feel you reaching in my chest, burning your fingertips into my heart.
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 9:47 AM UTC
Tattoo your passion onto my tongue
Give me something to talk about
Brand the heart in your chest
Into my fingertips
So I can write about love
Implant your smile to my eyelids
Then I will dream of reasons to wake
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 9:46 AM UTC
Todays sun felt lonely
Drenched in isolation
Melting for acceptance
Draping light upon empty carcasses
Feeling the gravity of the space between
An embrace no one can fulfill
Without the proper tools
The days will be spent empty
Full of giving solar flares of its former self
Begging for a better understanding
feeling altruism at the core
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 9:44 AM UTC