Let me tell you a few things about me.
I used to be the insecure one
Felt ugly and worthless
That I am not of this world
Have brains no looks
Didn't put effort in designer clothes
People would tell me that I'm beautiful
I'd smile and say to myself they just try to make me feel better
I doubt the mirror too
Being picked on by bigger kids ruined my self-esteem
Then I started reading books. Taking pictures
"Dressing up" still felt ugly
Boys would come and ask me out
I felt they made bets with their friends
Now I am not afraid anymore
I have decided to embrace my uniqueness
I dress up and attend self discovery events
I feel beautiful haha I am beautiful
Always have been
I am not afraid anymore
I walk confidently
The ground is made of gold
I am an enchantress
Aug 16, 2016
Aug 16, 2016 at 8:43 PM UTC
Don't pour so much love on me,
I might drown.
Do not go too far from me,
I might get depressed in frown.
Since the first time when I saw you,
I haven't closed my eyes for weeks.
Just tell me once, what's in you?
I won't disclose, whatever it is.
Don't come too much close,
I love you though I fear.
I fear that your love I'LL lose,
And like others, you'll leave me in tears.
The first time when I saw you through,
To my heart and soul it felt like bliss.
Just Tell Me Once what's in you?
I won't disclose whatever it is.
Don't leave me alone again,
I can't take on one more blow.
I swear to bear all your pains,
We'll face together, all the highs and lows.
The first time when you, holded me with you,
And gave my soul a hopeful kiss,
Just Tell Me Once, what's in you?
I won't disclose whatever it was.
Aug 16, 2016
Aug 16, 2016 at 8:35 PM UTC
I like pens that bleed
Ink that smears
Girls with scars
Broken parts
***** clothes
Stained sheets
The hint of blood
The taste of lust
The smells of love
Nights through morning
Mornings to night
Suns that sleep
Moons that dream
And all the pretty
You hide underneath
Those pretty
Pretty
Pretty things
Aug 15, 2016
Aug 15, 2016 at 10:35 PM UTC
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a
single
star
as
seen
through
my
window
*who
knew
stars
could
be
held
in
a
box?
Aug 15, 2016
Aug 15, 2016 at 10:32 PM UTC
The edge looks so inviting.
I could close my eyes and it could be all over.
One step and then I’m dead.
Should I jump?
Aug 15, 2016
Aug 15, 2016 at 10:15 PM UTC
*
If I were there I would caress your heart
with the thread of a silken cocoon
Stitched now as one on the eve of the weary,
bound by the light of the moon
Careful to touch oh so soft as a feather,
gentle as spider web tears
Keeping you close on the edge of the tomorrow,
shielding your soul from the fears
Dew drop beliefs on the lawn they are waiting,
prisms of lighthearted scenes
Dandelion clouds offer sweet pea protection,
dragonflies float in between
Watching as breezes of painted day whispers
on kite strings of warm summer fire
Sing with the echoes, repeating their sonnet,
offering all you desire
Though all I have is a poet’s conviction,
spilled now in ink penned to share
Hoping on dreams you will rest in the sunrise,
find a few moments to spare
Taking the hand of this forgotten hero,
trusting in him ever true
Open your eyes for a new day is dawning,
written with love just for you*
Jul 30, 2016
Jul 30, 2016 at 8:27 AM UTC
It Hurts
It hurts knowing
it will never be the same
having to see you
with someone else
acting like it doesn't cause me pain
seeing you laughing
having a good time
while i wonder
why i can't call you mine
while my eyes are filled with tears
and i can only see blurry
i take a deep breath
and tell myself not to worry
because deep down i know what's true
i am still deeply in love with you
~J.O
Jul 30, 2016
Jul 30, 2016 at 8:26 AM UTC
woke up and gazed at him
he lays there quite
I greet him good morning
he lays there silent
I lay on his chest, searching for a heart beat
he lays there still
I say a short silent prayer
he lays there motionless
I try to block the thousands hopeless thoughts...
I am hopeless
he is gone...
Jul 30, 2016
Jul 30, 2016 at 8:25 AM UTC
Many times,
You return to me in my midnight dreams,
Follows such bright happiness,
Makes me forget the lonely times,
Living here in this lonesome place,
Returning your warm heart,
Every black night,
I know, I'm foolish waiting,
With hopes and tears falling,
For your return, with heart-broken dreams,
My tears have slowed,
But my heart still aches for you,
I miss your touch,
I miss your hugs,
I miss your love,
How can I ever forget my past,
With you leaving me,
Every bright morning?
Copyright © 2016 Ronald J Chapman All Rights Reserved.
Jul 30, 2016
Jul 30, 2016 at 8:23 AM UTC