As I sit with my elixir to my right
and my chaser to my left
This emotional burden
I wish not heft
I find myself
Wanting this girl
This is the third
Time I'll try this world
She wants another
This I know
But however
I still put on this show
I'll try and I'll try
To prove I'm worthy
If she'll give up this guy
Who I know is .....is....
I know how I feel
This feeling is real
Only if she'd see
What she means to me
She's smart
That's a start
But, will she challenge
That's the real test
If she cannot best
I'll soon to see
If she better than me
I so desperately want her to be
I'm blind going into this
They say
Ignorance is bliss
I beg to differ
I want to know
For me, I wish she'd long
Again and again
I keep singing this song
**** this
**** everything
My vision blurs
But my mind is clear
I want her
But I have many fears
If she wants
I'm here
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 12:25 AM UTC
darling
it seems there are galaxies in your eyes,
and your lips sing the song of a million first kisses
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 12:23 AM UTC
I can't. It hurts too much, I love you and I never said it and it ended too soon and now the words are ******* burnt on top of my tongue and heart forever stitched into my memory like an infected
Wound closed too early that harbors a breeding infection worsening with time. And I hate it, wish I could cut it out like a nagging splinter but I can't because it's intangible so **** you and **** this and **** me for
Letting you sear me branding your face into my eye sockets so I can't rest and I close my lids on purpose just to see you. So when he thinks I'm lost in kissing him my eyes are ******* shut because I'm saying hi to you again with my lips.
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 12:22 AM UTC
Heaven,
We all go
If we accept
God
But
If
I
Don’t
Will I
Go to
Hell?
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 8:12 AM UTC
Using all of my energy,
I feel like I'm screaming.
But it all reality,
I'm just barely making a whisper.
Feb 3, 2015
Feb 3, 2015 at 11:30 PM UTC
Open my pages
Read me back to front.
Pretend that you know me
Then call me a ****
Feb 3, 2015
Feb 3, 2015 at 9:41 AM UTC
How
Can Will
You You
Break Fix
Me Me
When When
You You
Fixed Broke
Me Me
In In
The The
First First
Place Place
Darling.
Feb 3, 2015
Feb 3, 2015 at 9:39 AM UTC
All
I
Do
Is
Try.
Yet,
All
You
Do
Is
Act
Like
I’m
Joke.
Until
I’m
Dead.
Feb 3, 2015
Feb 3, 2015 at 9:29 AM UTC
*I love you
Please don’t let go of my hand
Are you ashamed of me?
Wait stop
What did I do?
Don’t
Please don’t squeeze it so har-
Ow!
That hurts please let go
What are you doing?
Stop please stop pushing your
Fingers between my collar bones
What are you doing?
Please stop, I love you*
This isn’t love, not at all
There isn’t a single bit
Of affection on his fingertips
When he shoves you on the floor
That ache that you feel when you touch
Your bruises? You tell yourself it’s love
Manifested so deep
Only something as intense as pain could show it
I know it hurts
It hurts when he calls you names
But it hurts more to think
That this isn’t love
Not at all
You’re doing everything
You can you’ve held him after
He hit you when he cries and
He swears he will be a
Better man.
“He can get better, I swear.
It wasn’t his fault,
I shouldn’t have done that.”
Darling, stop.
Stop bending over backwards for
A boy who only wants
To break your spine.
Stop giving him forgiveness undeserved
And apologies unnecessary.
Stop covering your bruises and
leaving your wounds unstitched
Stop bleeding for a boy
Who will never clean up the stains
Stop crying for
A boy who only laughs at your tears
Stop
This is not love.
Not at all
You’re too beautiful for these bruises
And dark circles under your eyes
You’re too strong for these wounds
You’re too important to let this
Boy take away your life
This isn’t the love that you deserve.
This isn’t love, not at all.
You are more than
Your bruises and you are
More than your scars you are so much
More than the names he calls you
And your tear stained pillow cases.
Honey, dry your eyes.
Stitch your wounds.
Straighten up your spine
You are so
Much more than this.
Say goodbye
Because this isn’t love
Not at all.
Feb 3, 2015
Feb 3, 2015 at 8:49 AM UTC