Dear depression
I'm writing to let you know
That I don't have anything else to give
You took away all my hope
What more do you want of me
The few breaths that I take?
They're not even for me I swear
I just don't want them to break
The ones who still care about me
Somehow you weren't able to push them away
I guess they're stronger than I'll ever be
But I don't want you to make them ache
Hurt me bruise me take my soul
But let my body here
For them , not me , I'm miserable at my best
But I can't let them live in fear
Dear depression
Please subside
We can live together
Just don't make me die
Jul 29, 2017
Jul 29, 2017 at 4:18 PM UTC
I am a victim of my brain
Back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth it goes.
It never stops.
Do I play nice to myself,
Or is it time for punishment?
Choose.
Choose, NOW.
No, you have to be gentle.
NO, you don’t deserve to be forgiven.
You hurt everyone.
NO. It’s all in your head.
NO. It’s not.
YES IT IS.
NO!
Count the number of people I hurt,
Tell yourself why you don’t deserve anything.
STOP PLEASE STOP…
Which voice in my mind will win at the end of the day
Is unpredictable.
But I need a happy ending to my day,
Or at least feel okay
Because everyone deserves a happy ending.
But do I?
NO.
Yes I do.
No you don’t.
FIGHT IT YES YOU DO.
You need to feel okay.
You are okay.
You’re okay.
You’re okay.
You are okay.
Jul 18, 2017
Jul 18, 2017 at 10:04 AM UTC
there we were
in a café
enjoying each other's company
I looked to my right
and saw a Filipina lady
and a white man
eating their breakfasts silently
"she seems unhappy
and anxious"
I thought to myself
**********
I asked my mother.
she says yes and nods.
I hope that one day
that lady won't have
to sell herself
to make a living.
Jul 15, 2017
Jul 15, 2017 at 3:36 PM UTC
I could treat you
so much better
than the weak men
you've been with.
They play games,
and sometimes you gladly
play along because
you want to feel
special.
If only you could
take my hand,
I'd give you more
than what you deserve.
Jul 15, 2017
Jul 15, 2017 at 2:04 PM UTC
she dreams of
being with girls
some are friends
some are new faces
and every time she
feels an attraction
to one of them
she wonders:
do I want all in,
or do I just want a taste?
Jul 15, 2017
Jul 15, 2017 at 12:56 AM UTC
How I long to
grace her hips,
full of love and desire.
I want pull her in, slowly
like a tender lover would.
Then I'd gently hold
her face--
and tell her that I'm in love
with her.
But alas,
this is merely
a fantasy...
one which will never meet
the expectations
of those around her.
Jul 15, 2017
Jul 15, 2017 at 12:11 AM UTC