It's curse in your blood
It's a shake in your step
But I can't stress enough
It's the rush in your head
The rush you leave in my head
Cause I love each flaw
Like the creases in your hands
And the bow in your back.
Dec 27, 2015
Dec 27, 2015 at 4:59 AM UTC
Yes yes and more yes please
The only answer that should exsist
Not for me
I like no
No is it's own motivation
Movtivation for activation
Earning your way in this tiresome world
I like no.
It doesn't stunt your growth
Indeed the opposite
Sep 8, 2015
Sep 8, 2015 at 8:24 PM UTC
Give you miles of rope
Hang us from gallows
Flute stuck in our throats
I wonder why you chose to let us
Struggle and choke.
Sep 1, 2015
Sep 1, 2015 at 5:11 AM UTC
Count back from 10
Calm your mind
Calm your heart
How can I ?
I let you in
I think it's enough to let you see
That I'm hurting
Turning
Burning
Yearning
My words ring so empty to you
So you play with words so beautifully
And sometimes not at all
I'm growing in distance
Your growing so distant
I'm wondering when my head will give up
Holding my heart for you
Consciously I love you
Consciously I'm trying
I know the universe understands
My emptyness
My lonelyness
But do you?
Sep 1, 2015
Sep 1, 2015 at 5:02 AM UTC
I can see the silhouette of
Your shoulder blade stained against the back of your shirt.
And the way to
Your house is still
Muscle memory even though its been a year.
When I hugged you hello
My body didn’t want to ever let go
And just like old times
Your hairs clung to my clothes from the static between us.
You could be the skin on my bones
But still not be as close as
I want you.
Without conscious thought or deliberation
Our fingers worked their way around each other,
The red string coiling around our wrists and settling in the ridges of our palms.
Except this time, I did not feel the hurt that I used to
When our hands brushed.
This time there was no gnaw because our lips won’t touch.
This time I was happy that
I could love you,
I could love you without hurting myself.
And though i have love for you i can have love again and you can too.
Aug 27, 2015
Aug 27, 2015 at 11:46 PM UTC
Scatter pieces of me through the universe
its been a year in this golden hearse
No victories just a curse of pain to bleed.
and now your here staining me
youve shown me so much in this year of change
and youll never feel strange to me
your the heaven i thought id never see
and i can understand your lack of belie
Aug 27, 2015
Aug 27, 2015 at 11:45 PM UTC
There are cityscapes tucked into the crook of your neck
And my lips have been lost for as long as I can remember.
You told me that underneath the steel work
There are catacombs of all the people that have ever tried to love you,
But darling I am not afraid of death.
I heard a story once that the grim reaper
Was just a man who could not die
So to cope,
He shed his skin
And his flesh,
Began taking the souls of everybody else.
I found that I’m the same way;
A man who cannot be loved
So I’ve become toxic in the arms of others.
According to the mathematics
Two negatives together should bring a positive outcome,
But according to science
We can never atomically touch.
According to faith
I am still a believer.
According to my heart
It’s such a shame because
I never wanted to be a traveler
Aug 27, 2015
Aug 27, 2015 at 11:41 PM UTC
The past few days have been hell
shuffling through the file cabinet of my memories
just to find you haunt my dreams
ghastly faint noises of laughter make me nauseous
As we fall into the canal
water so cold i could have been frostbitten from head to toe
Oh how i panicked and told you i couldn't swim
shoes sinking with the weight of water and muscles stiff with ice
as we get out the sun and the warmth of your smile warm me
We walk back to your house full of ourselves carrying our clothes in the golden haze of fall
as we get back inside you grab me a towel and we spend the night watching cheesy movies and napping
It always feels real always and my heart sinks a little when i wake up and it was just a dream of all the ways we used to be.
Ive moved on but for some tormenting reason or another my mind likes to taunt itself.
part of me wishes that of all the things ive forgotten over the years this could be one of them
Aug 27, 2015
Aug 27, 2015 at 11:40 PM UTC
I spent summer trying to sweat you out
and winter numb as hell,
goodbye maybe be hard but its all i got right now.
I cant hold of to these broken dreams of you
and i cant pretend im not drowning just to get breathes of you,
but i need to move forward even if forgetting you is something ill never do.
Aug 27, 2015
Aug 27, 2015 at 11:39 PM UTC
i still can't talk about it
you're the stars and the moon
and every galaxy in between this life and the next
but i need you to leave me alone right now. <3
Aug 27, 2015
Aug 27, 2015 at 11:31 PM UTC