i often feel so insecure with my own self
with my own body
the shape of my body (but i don't have any shape)
the smell of my breath
the smell of my body
the way i dress up
are my pants, shirt, scarf and shoes suit well
the way i walk
does it attract the attention from the guy
does it cover my aurat well
do i dress up like a clown
(but i know that the insecurity won't be good for me, i won't feel safe to go out anymore, i won't have any confident to be in the crown anymore)
May 11, 2017
May 11, 2017 at 3:28 AM UTC
Support is like oxygen
everyone needs it
May 11, 2017
May 11, 2017 at 3:17 AM UTC
Battered and bruised
this heart takes a pounding.
As the mind goes into the spin cycle.
Taking no notice of time
that elapses regardless.
Worn and exhausted,
these lungs yearns and fights for...
Air.
Sweet air.
As if tomorrow would offer no more.
Unnatural and numbing...
Sleep.
These meds promise only the illusion
that all is good and well.
Encapsulated in high sheen gloss.
Shaped such to go down easy.
A means for a convenient albeit
temporary escape.
May 11, 2017
May 11, 2017 at 3:17 AM UTC
do you feel better when you judge people
do you feel proud of yourself
do you feel happy
do you find it fun
if only you know how that person really feels
i don't think you would be able to sleep at night
i don't think you would be able to face the world
May 11, 2017
May 11, 2017 at 3:10 AM UTC
What Matters
*It don't matter what you want
It don't matter what you need
It don't matter what you feel
It don't matter what you think
It don't matter what you like
It don't matter what you do
It don't matter what you have
It don't matter what you choose
There is one thing that matters
What you did it matters
You need to know what matters most
Is you no longer matter now to me
It don't matter what you make
It don't matter what you take
It don't matter what you see
It don't matter what you say
It don't matter where you work
It don't matter where you play
It don't matter where you go
It don't matter where you stay
There is one thing that matters
What you did it mattered
So you need to know what matters
Is you no longer matter now to me
It don't matter if you're glad
It don't matter if your sad
It don't matter if you lie
It don't matter if you cry
There is one thing that matters
What you did it mattered
So you need to know what matters
Is you no longer matter now to me
Now it no longer matters
Who, What, When, Where Or Why
As a matter of fact
You no longer matter now to me*
Song by: Carl Joseph Roberts
Mar 17, 2015
Mar 17, 2015 at 2:41 PM UTC
Why is this happening
Is this how it must be
Is this the end
If so, is this because of me
Or is this just how things need to happen
Will our paths cross again
Will we ever be anything more
Or is my presence simply too much
Can this get worse or only better
Why must this happen
Will I ever know
Will things return to normal
Or is change the only thing I need
Jan 29, 2015
Jan 29, 2015 at 8:48 PM UTC
Breath
You're going to be okay
Love doesn't always feel this way
Preserve your faith
Breath
Your lungs are too **** worn down for this
You're still young,
So learn to love the life you lead even if you have to learn to love it for me
Because some day I have to believe you'll see a point in all this
So I lean in for a kiss on your sweet lips
And there's nothing better than this cause love, even when we're worlds apart
Your smile seems plastered among the stars, you're gonna go far
I just hope I get to see the day
I hope I can stand close enough to catch your sunrays
It's in you I store my faith
And I truly hope that one day you'll be able to put it there too
I truly hope that one day you'll learn to see it that way
Jan 29, 2015
Jan 29, 2015 at 8:48 PM UTC
I feel like I keep waking up in a nightmare of my mind.
I'm so trapped.
I can't escape the fact that I have to
wake up again.
And again.
And again.
When will I learn that I'm the nightmare.
I'm never going to wake up from this one cause I created it.
The only way to wake up is to destroy it,
Destroy myself.
I need to wake up.
Jan 29, 2015
Jan 29, 2015 at 8:47 PM UTC