You fall in love with everyone when they are talking about their favorite things
You fall in love with voices that rumble like the earth whispering all its darkest secrets
You fall in love with people who carry the moon in their chests
You fall in love with people’s scars, you dive into their stories, you memorize the maps of memories on their skin
You fall in love with the sorrow people cater to in their hearts, you wait to see how much of it spills out and where it goes afterward
You fall in love with a song you’ve heard since you were born but you never remember, you hear it humming in the blood of everyone around you
You fall in love with anyone who quotes Vonnegut and makes eye contact for so long it makes you feel uncomfortable
You fall in love with the way another person’s presence can begin to feel so much like home
You fall in love with the bits of cosmic dust connecting your veins to those of every living thing
You fall in love with the night sky and all its musings
You fall in love with absolutely everything
You surrender yourself
You shed your skin
You fall into love and let it swallow you whole
Mar 17, 2015
Mar 17, 2015 at 4:33 PM UTC
Remember how the night was deceptively warm, and how you carried all the frost in your chest like you hadn’t spoken a word in a whole year
Remember how you drove to their house with a hurricane in your blood thinking of everything that could go wrong
Remember how you felt your knees crumble and your lungs lock up that summer night in the park behind the school
Remember how badly this ended before
Remember all the cruel hands you let touch your skin when you were grasping at anything that made you feel less alone
Remember the vulnerability
Remember the panic
Remember the feeling of an anvil on your chest
Remember the jubilance
Remember the nights when your bodies entwined on a bed made too small for two people to share
Remember the way their eyes lit up when they told you about all their favorite things
Remember how they cracked open their ribs and poured out everything collected inside
Remember how you wanted to drink their light like it was wine
Remember how you wanted to open their skull and swim inside
Remember how you would bottle sunlight for this person if you could
Remember how you you would swallow all their pain and carry all their fear if you were strong enough
Remember how you were too excited by their existence to fall asleep some nights
Remember how you fell in love like having the wind knocked out of you in the very best way
Remember all of this, every bit
Mar 17, 2015
Mar 17, 2015 at 4:33 PM UTC
My mania tells me things and I obey
Like:
You should dye your hair three different colors in one week
Like:
You should stay up all night finger painting and call it art
Like:
You should organize your bookshelves
based on sensations instead of genre
Like:
You should give away everything you own,
you don’t need it anyway
Like:
You should text all of your exes,
ask them when the feeling faded
or if it was ever even there
Like:
You should ignore all of your phone calls
and alarm clocks
and all other sounds
that make your skin crawl
Like:
You should cover your windows with black sheets
and pretend that life is one long night
you never have to sleep through
Like:
You should distance yourself
from everyone you love
tell them you’re okay
you just have to go away
for awhile
Like:
You should tear off your layers
expose the wounds beneath
wait for the sting to turn numb again
Like:
You should shatter yourself to pieces
pretend they can be lost
and found again
Like:
You should hide anything that hurts
in the space between your ribs
forget they’re growing
forget they’re spreading
forget they’re waiting
all winter long
to bloom like flowers in the spring
Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 10:28 PM UTC
hold my hand
lead me wherever you want
hold me close
to your warmth
to the smile i love
but it's just a dream
because in reality
i'm just a friend
a mere acquaintance who you like to laugh and joke around with
but to me
you're something i want
lust
desire
nights spent with thoughts about you
but
you'll never know
unless you feel the same
which you never will
because you're accomplished
you can do things
get things better than me
so why would you waste your time?
i'm a peasant and you're my king
you're a shiny first place trophy
i'm a bland participation ribbon
you're a ten and i'm a three
and all i wish
is that you would see me
like i see you
Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 10:26 PM UTC
They have spent their
content of simpering,
holding their lips this
and that way, winding
the lines between
their brows. Old folks
allow their bellies to jiggle like slow
tamborines.
The hollers
rise up and spill
over any way they want.
When old folks laugh, they free the world.
They turn slowly, slyly knowing
the best and the worst
of remembering.
Saliva glistens in
the corners of their mouths,
their heads wobble
on brittle necks, but
their laps
are filled with memories.
When old folks laugh, they consider the promise
of dear painless death, and generously
forgive life for happening
to them.
Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 10:20 PM UTC
A free bird leaps on the back
Of the wind and floats downstream
Till the current ends and dips his wing
In the orange suns rays
And dares to claim the sky.
But a BIRD that stalks down his narrow cage
Can seldom see through his bars of rage
His wings are clipped and his feet are tied
So he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
Of things unknown but longed for still
And his tune is heard on the distant hill for
The caged bird sings of freedom.
The free bird thinks of another breeze
And the trade winds soft through
The sighing trees
And the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright
Lawn and he names the sky his own.
But a caged BIRD stands on the grave of dreams
His shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
His wings are clipped and his feet are tied
So he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings with
A fearful trill of things unknown
But longed for still and his
Tune is heard on the distant hill
For the caged bird sings of freedom.
Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 10:20 PM UTC
The more I stand here
in this downpour,
The more I question if
the water is still flowing, or
if it's just my tears
Dripping down my frail body,
Cascading over each prominent rib,
And coursing through each protruding hip bone,
highlighting each defect with His gleaming smile
as if He knows something I don't.
And I wonder, just how many times
the Water will try to slip his slithering hand
around my wrist,
Before my essence follows Him down the drain.
And I wonder, just how many times
I have to hear how fragile
I must be
Before my spirit melts entirely.
And I wonder, just how many times
I'll be told how small
I am
Before my soul fades into nothingness
and I forget I exist as a person,
not just
a Skeleton
Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 10:18 PM UTC
don't forget
I was there
when he wasn't
when he caged your soul
and set it free
and caught it again
And Killed It.
don't forget
I was there
when you were falling apart
when you had to pick up the pieces
and needed help
and said I was the best thing you had
And Then He Came Back.
don't forget
I was there
when you pushed me away
when you said I obviously didn't care
and my concern was too much of a burden
and it somehow became my fault
And I Stopped Trying.
don't forget
that I won't be there
when you come crawling back
when you apologize a million times
and you leave him again
and say it was all your fault
And I'll Say, **** You."
Feb 21, 2015
Feb 21, 2015 at 10:01 PM UTC
i like my body when it is with your
body. It is so quite new a thing.
Muscles better and nerves more.
i like your body. i like what it does,
i like its hows. i like to feel the spine
of your body and its bones,and the trembling
-firm-smooth ness and which i will
again and again and again
kiss, i like kissing this and that of you,
i like, slowly stroking the,shocking fuzz
of your electric furr,and what-is-it comes
over parting flesh….And eyes big love-crumbs,
and possibly i like the thrill
of under me you so quite new
Feb 21, 2015
Feb 21, 2015 at 9:53 PM UTC