****** discomfort and sensual pain
damaging love
you make me insane
**** me, find me, free me
be inside my being
and see me
Apr 16, 2019
Apr 16, 2019 at 6:29 PM UTC
Clumsy heart
and a cluttered brain
all I seem to feel is pain
I take the blade, slide it down my wrist
and clench my catastrophic fist
I'm not okay, I'm not alright
I think about dying all day and all night
I'm sorry mom, I'm sorry dad
but for a long time now
I've been so so sad
but mom, you're not here
and dad, you don't care
and unfortunately I'm not all that scared
to take the blade
slide it down my wrist
and unclench my catastrophic clenching fist
Nov 23, 2018
Nov 23, 2018 at 4:54 PM UTC
They say it's better for your health
To always be kind
To go through the day at a steady pace
And regulate your emotions
They say slow and steady wins the race
But they're just going through the motions
Running into oceans...
Drinking deadly potions...
High highs and low lows
My life never flows, never slows, sometimes blows
I'll never know
I'll always care
Like the turtle and the hare
It never seemed quite fair
That the fastest of us fall behind
I wish it could all rewind
A perspective that sticks is hard to find
Nov 19, 2018
Nov 19, 2018 at 6:09 PM UTC
High and *****
Don't ask for much
High and *****
Is what it is
High and *****
Likes to complain
High and *****
Gets way too excited
High and *****
Writes and beats
High and *****
Is more often than not
Sad and lonely
Oct 4, 2017
Oct 4, 2017 at 10:26 AM UTC
I am putting my life on hold.
Not to waste it away
Not to
get lost
Not
to disappear
But to become better
To become the best version of me
so I would finally feel like I deserve everyone who loves me
I am not pausing my life
I am pushing the restart button
I am making changes
I am taking out the virus and filling it with self-love
I am learning to love
Jul 23, 2017
Jul 23, 2017 at 11:07 PM UTC
She wore him
like a garment.
His absence
left her
naked.
- n. ib
Jul 23, 2017
Jul 23, 2017 at 11:06 PM UTC
To me;
He is everything.
He aligns like the constellations in the night sky
Telling me what's wrong and what's right and exactly how to get by
To him;
I am nothing.
I am one simple star
That he knows will never go very far.
Jul 23, 2017
Jul 23, 2017 at 11:03 PM UTC
Your electric soul sets sparks to my subtle heart
And the fire that is held in your eyes sometimes threatens to tear me apart
One delicate touch and you set my mind a blaze
Loving you is like being lost in a haze
Jul 23, 2017
Jul 23, 2017 at 11:01 PM UTC
I've written this over and over but the words never seem to justify everything you are.
They only sum up who I am.
They are bleak and full of loneliness and even if you read in between the lines you can conclude that I am nothing more than an empty space to make this ******* letter seen full.
And maybe that's the problem with me.
Maybe I'm always going to be the one who goes in between everyone's lives so they have stories to tell, but I don't have a story of my own.
I'm the fill in.
And so I suppose that's why you left me because I was useless to your story now because you met her who is smart and beautiful and has the potential to write her own masterpiece.
So go ahead and forget me because I know I was and never will be nothing more than someone to fill your sparingly lonely nights and your sparse boring days.
I know I will never be more than a waste of time.
Jul 23, 2017
Jul 23, 2017 at 11:01 PM UTC