My princess charming
My smile keeper
My down when I am up
My controller when I am out of control
My calmer when I get insane
I see you wish to shield me
You can't
because what you want to protect me from
is within
I sit and look at you
Your hopelessness bits me on my ***
I see you can not, not get worried
Your powerful love can't even win this over
You are sweet... as I look at you, while trying to help
While trying to figure this out
While trying to get to the bottom of it
Don't you see though
There isn't even bottom about it
I don't even know myself if it is
down
Shapeless
Oval
I don't know, yet it is within me
Complicated you say
I know hey
I don't want you getting involved but
By loving me mean you are involved
Like it or not you are introduced to this
That is the perks that comes with my love
I am stuck with it, you you my beloved
You are not obliged to
To be stuck with it too
You have a choice
You go or stay
Let me warn you
If you choose stay
Well buckle up this ride with me
Is too bumpy
I hope you ready
But I say it again, you are not obliged
As the ride get too much
You may get off
But because you delayed
You might get off with more than scarce
Sorry about that but I warned you
I did ☺
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 4:49 PM UTC
I met my princess charming
How amazing to love and to be loved
Was it ever love?
If it was love or not I guess I will never know
She brought with her happiness
She brought with her hope
She brought with her a change to
A chance to experience yet again life
It has been long since I felt what I felt
With her I felt it or I thought I felt it
The moments lived with a chance of
A chance of happiness was life
I thank God for you and the time
The time we were given
Given life to experience and live
I will forever cherish us
I am greatful for what it was
No regret what so ever
This was thee greatest distraction the
Distraction to my nun so existing
Nun existing life
Now.... now you drifting away
You parting with all you brought
The happiness
Hope
Life
Thank you
Bye
Oct 5, 2018
Oct 5, 2018 at 7:40 AM UTC
Depression is were you want to be alone,
But at the same time you dont want to be lonely.
Depression is where everything is going right,
But you're still sad.
Depression is wanting to go out,
But at the same time not wanting to socialize.
Depression is feeling trapped,
Trapped in your own mind
and no one understands.
Depression is having scars on your thighs and arms,
Scars from the battle you fought.
Depression is having sleepless nights,
Depression is shouting for help,
But no one hears you.
Depression is fighting demons deep
inside you.
Depression is not something to laugh at,
So grow up if you think depression is just an act,
Depression is something serious.
Jan 4, 2018
Jan 4, 2018 at 4:51 AM UTC
music, songs soothes hearts
songs calms and songs heals
I am listening
all is as
possible
pleasant
and pure
I am stepping up
I am letting go
the rhythm allows me to
courage is gathered
and music picked me up
I am healing
I am smiling
I am growing
Oh! I love music
I took charge
It feels amazing
when this song reach my ears
in early hours of the morning
my soul dances and moves
my ears hears and my lips sings along
yet my eyes are shut closed
I touched the finish line with the tip of my figures
I can feel all settles with my tongue
And i felt free
I am free
Nov 14, 2017
Nov 14, 2017 at 2:50 AM UTC
Love is spiritual
Loves has no gender preference
It sees no human’s colour, race no shape
Love has no eyes
Love develops in the midst of
Respect
Kindness
Caring
Trusting
Believing
Most of all when eyes are
But closed and souls are opened
Love is drown in by the soul a person has
Love develops deep within
Love know nor society values
Love plays its own beats
But human being created
But huge walls around them
This prevent souls to connect
Gender preferences prevents love
Race of a being prevents love
Colour of our skins prevents love
Hell yet shape of a human body prevents love
Why did we become like this
When did we become like this
Can you feel that?
That is my soul connecting with yours
How will we be happy if the society deems it
But not acceptable
Why can’t we let love rules?
This will make this sick world be
But the better place for all
Only if we allow love to be LOVE
Oct 25, 2017
Oct 25, 2017 at 9:40 AM UTC
No one can see this
No one can feel this
No one understands
No one and not this body
But it has see it all
Tears
Emotions
Anger
Sadness
Most of all pain
Is it Pain....pain but
Not physical pain
Not emotional pain
Though it is so painful as i feel it
Skin
Veins
Blood
Gone all gone
they are all dead and buried
Inner being is visited but with emptiness
Time with you adds no pleasure
No memory to re-live by thought
Touches from you are not felt
Day night i long for the days when all lives
I didn't get time to say my good bye
I could have...
I could have asked then when will you return
There was no time for me and you
There was no time for me and you when you departed
I can not recall the last of you
All i could pick up was you no longer existed in me
Only in the head i live
But that is not enough because
Because the head recalls
no caressing
no butterflies
no assurance of embrace
Day night i live
emptiness is ruling within me
Oct 17, 2017
Oct 17, 2017 at 9:22 AM UTC
I’m gay I’m gay I’m gay I’m gay I'm gay
it kind of
spills off my tongue
when I don’t want it to
an
impulse
a
burning choke in my throat
falling out of me when I wish it would stay inside
when strangers are around
when
they really don’t need to know
it’s painted on my face
it’s written on the backs of my hands
my collarbone is burning white hot with a tell
and my eyes watering every secret of it
can they tell?
can everyone see right through me?
I’m
too scared to ask
somehow
also too scared to keep it inside
It wants out more than anything
but
she wants to be safe more than anything
Sep 16, 2017
Sep 16, 2017 at 6:56 AM UTC
You hide yourself in us so beautifully
No one notices that you are within us
You take over when 1 is feeling sad
also when one is very happy
I sit in my comfortable corner and wonder
What is your aim....
It is to be recognised, acknowledged and accepted
And if this above mentioned are done
Will you stop your ways of increasing the pressure
You get me thinking hard without any lead
Without anylead to your aim
I must say I think your main aim is to destroy lives
Is to end lives
Your way of winning is a corpse in a grave
That is your accomplishment
I know you... i know you on a personal point of view
You take over a life
A life that end in loosing interest in life all together
1 becomes new to themselves
1 thrives to find new ways to be happy in life but not too happy you(depreciation) don't aprove
It annoyes and irritates me the fact that you want more
You want more than you take/took
You specifically want a life
You want once precious life
I don't think I will allow you to do that
No I refuse to let it be
You taking over 1ns being and their life
No you cannot
Accepting you in us might be the only
The only weapon will use to defeat you
So I think
Sep 11, 2017
Sep 11, 2017 at 1:03 PM UTC
Am I the only one that has their demons feasting upon their souls?
They say it is easy to tie a noose around your mind,
To overcome the urges and temptations of ending your life with a suicide
They don't know the true pain and torment that is going on in my head
An epic battle that leaves me with restless nights in bed
"End your life already" they say, as they prey on me during my weakest hours
Sometimes I give into the voices, carrying the sharp blade to my wrist
Crying as I struggle to mutter three powerful words that keeps me going
Choking on my sobs, my lungs deflate with a desire to say that God loves me
I try to convince myself that God is trying to test my faith
And to just wait, wait and wait
Then my Demons will eventually go AWAY.....
~Imperfect Desire **
Aug 24, 2017
Aug 24, 2017 at 4:38 AM UTC