Confused and depressed
Not knowing what comes to life next
A promise that started so beautifully
He changed, and now, is he really ending it this slowly?
In the dark, while I savor the pain
I longed to be happy and then you came.
At a brisk, I let you in
Consumed my mind and invaded my soul.
Your eyes, I couldn’t help but stare
Your voice, that became music to my ear
I wish the time was longer – that’s a shame
Why did I meet you at such a wrong fate?
How can I tell him about you?
You belong to someone else while I do too.
Albeit amiss, the times with you felt nothing but right;
Never was I this proud of the wrong, never in my life.
Lost with bewilderment, who does my heart choose?
HIM, the person that I have learned to love?
Or YOU, the person that suddenly caught my heart?
I’m guilty of even having to question myself that.
The negative thoughts, the guilt, the constant fear.
It has now started drowning me in.
I realized, this affected him and I wanted to do the right thing.
So, I had to choose him.
Jul 19, 2019
Jul 19, 2019 at 3:20 PM UTC
Sometimes, you just want your dreams to be your reality.
Why is everything about life to me right now is so much better when I sleep.
Can I do that forever?
Sep 3, 2018
Sep 3, 2018 at 10:36 AM UTC
There is always one person that broke your heart.
But you don't want to forget.
Cos their thought is still the ones that makes your heart smile.
Sometimes you just need to think that it's just how life works.
Your time is just up with that person and all you gotta do is go back to the memories with that person that made you the happiest.
And accept that it's already someone else's turn.
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 1:48 PM UTC
Why do I feel empty every time the music plays
Just thinking about where my fate is taking me.
I don’t feel down but I am not happy either.
Having no idea what I want and what I don’t.
This thought is bothering me.
And I’m not sure where is this coming from.
What should I do :'(
Stop listening to music when that's my only friend at the same time.
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 11:31 AM UTC
I'm back here again.
Writing my thoughts.
Someone's broken into pieces.
Again.
Mar 13, 2018
Mar 13, 2018 at 4:00 PM UTC
You had me.
Completely.
From the very start. And you knew it.
It’s strange; how different you are to me now.
But, how foolish of me to believe a conman’s pitch?
But, how could I not?
It was the best kind of lie; one I wanted to believe.
My heart stopped beating each time I looked at you.
How could I overlook my own cardiac arrests?
Your tongue was so smooth, I didn’t notice it was forked.
Your words sounded so good, I didn’t realise they could be false.
I fell so hard, that I didn’t even think that I could hit the ground.
But, of course, I hit the cold concrete.
In fact, I crash every time I remember your face.
Because sometimes the cruelest of liars are the easiest to believe.
Nov 2, 2017
Nov 2, 2017 at 6:25 PM UTC
Has there ever been a person that you’ve met, loved, and lost all in just a couple of hours?
It may sound weird, but it happens.
He spoke the first word
I spoke the last.
His eyes cut through to the center of my soul. If I didn’t know better, I’d say he knew that what I wanted was for him to talk to me.
Like he knew before I did.
It really is strange to think about, how I don’t know where he is, nor do I have proof that he exists.
He does.
He exists to me like the inevitability of death.
Just as dark, just as strange.
I often think about him, thinking about me.
I really don’t know though, if I ever cross his mind.
I guess that is why it is so strange to me, that we see the same moon, live similar lives, but we may never see each other again.
He spoke the first word
I spoke the last.
*
*
*
And to think, I could’ve changed that.
I could’ve I could’ve asked him for some way to continue our conversations.
To allow us to grow closer.
But I didn’t.
I spoke the last word.
I watched him leave the room.
I watched him exit my life.
I wonder how my life would’ve changed,
If he uttered the first word,
And the last had yet to be spoken.
Oct 25, 2017
Oct 25, 2017 at 10:21 AM UTC
it's lonely out here.
Someone save me.
Save me from this agony.
Oct 18, 2017
Oct 18, 2017 at 8:42 PM UTC
I have made mistakes in the past
I have been broken
I thought you are ready to leave
Yet I was forgiven
I was desperate for love
Been desperately giving myself away
I thought you are ready to leave
Yet I was still forgiven
I told you too many lies
Even While looking at your eyes
I thought you are ready to leave
Yet I was still forgiven
I told you I cannot trust
To them it was nothing but lust
I thought you are ready to leave
Yet I was still forgiven
I didn't believe that you love me
Yet I was still forgiven
I'll be nothing but a misery
Yet I'll still be forgiven
Oct 18, 2017
Oct 18, 2017 at 6:06 PM UTC