it’s hard
to hear you
brushing against
sleeves so thin
empty bites
ringing through
the silence
of wasting hips
i’m too scared
if i reach out
your frame will
dissipate
flee through skin
translucent
taking too much
...space
Sep 29, 2014
Sep 29, 2014 at 11:42 PM UTC
Girl,you're pretty
Now stop starving
just to be skinny
Girl, you're beautiful
Nothing can get down
Now eat that meal till your tummy's full
Girl, your life is precious
Don't risk it like this.
Walk with your head held high
And look at the positive things
Girl, I know it's hard
Near relapses, family
and your inner war
Learn to stay strong
Ignore their taunts.
Girl, remember you're beautiful
Someday someone's going to love you
and fade all of your blues.
Girl, you're you
With your talents
and dimensions
Those models on cover pages will never be you
Sep 29, 2014
Sep 29, 2014 at 11:35 PM UTC
I thought I was better
because they sent me away.
But everything is just a number
that makes me ugly.
the binge purge cycle, how cliché,
but I just want to be beautiful.
anorexia is overused, trending.
it's eating away at my sanity,
morality.
I just want to be pretty.
Sep 29, 2014
Sep 29, 2014 at 11:31 PM UTC
With a body temperature
Below 96 degrees Fahrenheit,
Wrapping yourself in bed sheets
As translucent as your skin
Seems so nice but
Every minute you spend
Shivering is more calories burned,
So you try to ignore it
Or maybe you do two hundred more crunches
Because being athletic is healthy,
Right?
You open the pantry only to
deny yourself sustenance because you
are unworthy of
These simple pleasures, and
You almost let yourself
Eat an apple but
When you remember how
Good that girl in
the thinspo you have
Hidden on your phone looks,
You stop.
You flinch when your mother
Calls your skin porcelain,
Because that word means
You failed to restrain yourself
And you have always been taught to
Resist temptation, and
This is the ultimate test.
Sep 29, 2014
Sep 29, 2014 at 11:31 PM UTC