I can't think straight, can't focus.
All I think, dream, breathe, is you.
I think about us enough for you too,
that's probably why you don't.
It's amazing how miserable I was with you.
Even more amazing how miserable I am without you.
I'm torn between never wanting to see your face,
and never wanting to see anything else but that.
Apr 23, 2018
Apr 23, 2018 at 2:01 PM UTC
when the sun's out it's still dark
when the moon is up it's natural.
i feel normal.
tried so many things to make it light again
but all it does is cause storms.
Jun 19, 2016
Jun 19, 2016 at 8:01 AM UTC
nothing more, so much less.
the 18th year, to the date
is approaching.
I cannot bear the thought of myself
as anything more than a being.
I have accomplished nothing,
and lack the desire to do.
the 18th year and I am still
nothing.
Jan 19, 2015
Jan 19, 2015 at 9:48 PM UTC
are we dying to be skinny,
or are we dying,
to be skinny.
Jun 17, 2014
Jun 17, 2014 at 4:02 PM UTC
Smoke too many cigarettes;
Turning your lungs black,
Filling your body with poison.
Sick to the stomach.
Thinking too much;
Not thinking enough.
It leaves you feeling
that little bit more,
As you fall to the floor,
Counting steps,
No feeling in my legs.
Knowing that you are
killing yourself.
Too tired to care.
The adrenaline gets you high,
Like a muffled buzzing noise
in your ears
And bleeding in your brain.
They tell me it's expensive suicide,
But I just want to feel alive
Have some substance
to my life.
To be able to feel
the wind in my hair,
And rain
pouring down my face.
Because at night
That's what is keeping me safe .
Jun 17, 2014
Jun 17, 2014 at 4:00 PM UTC
I thought I was better
because they sent me away.
But everything is just a number
that makes me ugly.
the binge purge cycle, how cliché,
but I just want to be beautiful.
anorexia is overused, trending.
it's eating away at my sanity,
morality.
I just want to be pretty.
Jun 3, 2014
Jun 3, 2014 at 9:52 PM UTC
Could you maybe leave me alone for a minute?
Because my thoughts are hazy and hopeful.
You're a constant downer that keeps me grounded,
but no thanks.
Jan 2, 2014
Jan 2, 2014 at 8:58 PM UTC
Sometimes tears well up in my eyes,
because I'm sad.
I lie often,
because that's what people do.
Jan 2, 2014
Jan 2, 2014 at 8:57 PM UTC
"Hey remember that phase you went through."
What phase? I'm still living through it.
I can't find light even on the sunniest of days.
Do you mean remember when I wanted to die?
How could I remember when it never left,
when it's not a memory?
Oct 11, 2013
Oct 11, 2013 at 9:46 PM UTC