I chose to rely on bed of death
For all the mercy I did get in my past
I chose to stay over those writhered flower petals
For all those overnight negatives I was brewing inside me
I chose to decay myself under the roots of not so growing plants
For not believing in myself at all
For all I did was for others
I never did it for me
It ruins my selfish care
T'was I chose to stay on the black bed.
Feb 1
Feb 1, 2026 at 1:13 PM UTC
I wanna go and experience that old vintage love
I wanna go write and wait on that unknown still place
Where time stops by
Where my footprints wait for his
Where my hands waits to touch his
Where I can share my thoughts without texting him
I wanna experience that old vintage love
Jan 29
Jan 29, 2026 at 2:56 PM UTC
She told me not to cry
She told not to say this
She told me not to say that
I'm confused
I should behave like a dead grasshopper
It's better for me to vent through anger
But it's my fault at the end
If I say something She taunts me
But supports me in everything
I'm confused
Cause I wanna know
Does she love me?
Or She just only knows how to show emotions
Cause I'm her closed one?
I'm confused
She always wants me to react like She wants
And if I react to that she asks
Why am I not saying anything?
What is this?
I'm confused
Does she know me or is it just the burden she has to carry?
Nov 30, 2025
Nov 30, 2025 at 10:22 AM UTC
Tears rolling of disappointment I want to disappear
I'm trying to align those positive thoughts
And following the arc of the Falling star
That will surely made me feel great again
But after having so many breakdown
I just want to disappear
Is my hardwork all worth it?
I'm still questioning my existence again
This is my last chance to proof
After this, the carrier on this cart will surely fall into great despair
Nov 25, 2025
Nov 25, 2025 at 6:40 PM UTC
It's hard to stop a drop on the dry leaf,
The leaf will always sink in water anyway.
It's hard to give rays to the dry leaf,
It'll remain brown anyway,
It's hard to make a replica of it,
Cause it'll always remain unique anyway.
It's better to brew that leaf in the scripted environment
As it'll find it's path there anyhow,
It'll be hard to say goodbyes at first
But it'll better than to hold it and grow that fake trust.
Nov 25, 2025
Nov 25, 2025 at 12:51 PM UTC
Old hand on the handle of rocking chair
Speaks it's story, it recognize the memory
It recognize the story.
The forever closed thoughts do emerge again
Are these those moments that this age bargain
The wrinkles lived more and it's the only proof
After every circle, it gets thicker and the skin started to act as the price of satin
It looks old, yet it's alive
The time may roll, but those hands wants the love like five
After every end, if it rejoin the wrinkles again,
The old viens on the skin loses memories due to the disease
It bargain.
Nov 23, 2025
Nov 23, 2025 at 1:42 AM UTC
Passing by the empty seats really make me believe
That how people have connect to their old memories
Where they have seated and talked about their past
They can rest there but still walked through the time
And the bench again have remained empty
Seeing all the passer-by
Nov 19, 2025
Nov 19, 2025 at 6:31 AM UTC
Congratulations those worries were all fake
It may seem like the end but it's just a mirage of lake
Whatever your time or your health it may take
The result will always be better than what you've previously preferred to bake
Nov 17, 2025
Nov 17, 2025 at 6:52 PM UTC
Thinking all along whether I will ever crush as what's deep desire by me,
But the wreath of not believing and still comprehending every small decision
Is what making me feel lost
It's never about my real happy self
Yes, I can remain happy without any problems but still thinking all way long is way more harder
Can I just take a small rest.
No, I can't.
I'm afraid what if things go wrong, what if what I practiced isn't sufficient enough
What if what I'm answering is wrong
What if I lose all again?
Nov 17, 2025
Nov 17, 2025 at 5:34 AM UTC
Only saying "I'm with you"
Doesn't mean that, that person is with you
Please understand
They're just saying.
Only saying won't matter
Please show me your actions.
Nov 15, 2025
Nov 15, 2025 at 1:13 PM UTC