i still think of you often
whether im with people or by myself
i think about the way you touched me
the way your warm pink lips felt against my collarbone
then i thought about what actually happened
i dont think of you often
neither by myself or with people
i think about the way you hit me
the way your warm pink lips sputtered those words
i hope i never think of you
-k
Mar 27, 2020
Mar 27, 2020 at 3:45 PM UTC
when i tried to get better in the past
it felt like i was surrounded by water
drowning in it
when i thought i got better it felt
like every time i took a breath my
lungs filled with gasoline
when i got better it felt
like i was swimming in a pool of
flower pedals
i felt stuck for so long
now i am in control
and i am floating on clouds
Mar 27, 2020
Mar 27, 2020 at 3:36 PM UTC
i've always tried
tried to be THAT girl
the girl who has everything together
it didnt work out
Mar 27, 2020
Mar 27, 2020 at 3:32 PM UTC
in my 16 years of living i have never been more lost
he is gone and he broke me in the process
i healed
she died and i am now broken after healing for so long
she sold it after everything ive loved has left she really sold it
i am loving again
he hurt me broken and healing is no more
i am numb
i hurt me and i can now feel again but only for a little bit
i dont want to do this anymore
he is gone and im starting to feel
i still am broken
i am different and im starting to heal
i can still see my past
i am a different person now and my past no longer is looked at
i am loving, i am healed, i dont look back
i am better and thats all that matters
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020 at 1:15 PM UTC
“I love you” he says
But I cannot love back
How am I supposed to love when he took advantage
How can I trust when he did it
“U know I do too” I say
Because I cannot say the words
Jan 10, 2019
Jan 10, 2019 at 3:50 PM UTC
He’s there
The rose lives
He’s not
The rose dies
Either way
I’m not living
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 7:54 AM UTC
he didnt want anything serious in his life
but he was serious about that....
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 4:37 PM UTC
memories
still live on in my mind and
heart where they are now scared
thoughts fill my sad sad mind and i cannot get rid of them either
he is still there, behind me every noise ,i jump out of fear cause of his lies
scared he will come back and hurt me the way he had hurt me before i left
he knows i am scared because of the way i am with him around girls
i was so young when he hurt me that it is now within thoughts
to grab my knife when i hear a knock at the door or a creak
in the halls, i have lost my once sane mind to him
mace and a pocket knife on my key chain
so scared he will come back
and hurt me everything
is so ingrained
within
me
Dec 3, 2018
Dec 3, 2018 at 11:32 AM UTC