A week before my birthday you decided to act up. With even mouthing, "I don't give a **** I know were broken up already, but that whole time you had to yourself who were you ******* I know for a fact you repeatedly ****** with me emotionally and physically. You were wrong for saying, " If I didn't want to be with you I would have told you to kick rocks sooner, why would I waste my time and yours?" You should of told me to kick rocks sooner. Now I'm laying here with embarrassment and sadness because that whole time you had time to yourself you had an older mistress roll you around her ***** money and ****** comfort.
Sep 3, 2014
Sep 3, 2014 at 2:54 AM UTC
sometimes I just get in these moods where I think about nothing but destruction
But, what's the point in living, anyway?
I don't see a purpose quite exactly
my idea of fun is everything illegal
but if I get arrested, it's gonna be more than difficult to find a job
I could end up homeless
Or even worse, 40 years old living with my mother
we're born, and education is forced on us
we go to school with people we hate
atleast 50% or more of the school population hates themselves because of the people and remarks they have to deal with
everyday
but if we drop out of school, it's gonna be hard to get a job
and if we get lucky enough to get a job without education it's usually a job with poor pay
but how do you pay for your wife and two kids as a coworker at McDonald's?
"Lifes to short to have bad days," they say
life's not so short when you spend most of your time drowning in sadness and remorse
thinking about different ways to commit suicide
because it all started with a stupid boy
and it ended with a couple girls from school laughing at you
I breathe in anxiety
I exhale insecurity
while I'm stuck contemplating wether or not the girls across the room laughing at me
It's all so stupid
I guess life's not so short after all.
Jul 27, 2014
Jul 27, 2014 at 11:03 PM UTC
They say it takes twice as long to forget as it was to get to know so now I'm sitting in my room talking about six days down & six more years to go..
Jul 12, 2014
Jul 12, 2014 at 3:59 PM UTC
Your ******* them girls, disrespecting me
You don't see how your lies are affecting me?
You don't see how our life was supposed to be?
And I never let a guy get that close to me
And you aren't cracked up to what you were supposed to be
Your always gone, you'd always be where them hoes will be.
And this is the first time i'd spill my soul to you.
Jul 12, 2014
Jul 12, 2014 at 3:16 AM UTC
I called instantly to resolve our problem. You hung up. Worst part is you didn't hesitate to...
Jul 11, 2014
Jul 11, 2014 at 2:12 AM UTC
We all have friends, or even best friends, but do they always know how much you truly care about them? Just because they aren't always with you, doesn't mean they stop thinking about you, and vice versa. Don't ever forget to tell them how much they mean to you, whether near or far, true friendship is a bond that shall always remain.
Jun 28, 2014
Jun 28, 2014 at 12:11 AM UTC
ii.
It was a promise;
Not to leave
before you arrive.
I believed.
You didn't.
It wasn't a longing.
If it was, I could
just **** it in a blink.
I waited 'til late;
You overslept.
Jun 28, 2014
Jun 28, 2014 at 12:08 AM UTC
Tonight I realized that
you weren't the one
who wrecked me,
ruined me,
or destroyed me.
It was me.
Because only I
have the power to
do that to myself.
I destroyed myself
by loving you.
Jun 21, 2014
Jun 21, 2014 at 5:16 PM UTC
If change really existed how would you take it?
In other words If I told you I'm carrying an infant of yours
Would that turn your whole life around?
Would you stop running the streets and act like a man?
Or go on with this immature behavior of yours running the streets selling Dope convincing yourself it helps, but in reality all it does is tear You apart not only you but us.
You think I enjoy watching you inhale that herb going onto a different world of an illusion?
Or watch you grab onto that cigar because it "calms" you down?
Or let me remind you of the time you got locked up, saying you were sorry, but simply got back to where you started
I know your hurting I see it in you there's a reason why we've come this far Right? two And a half years already I'm still here.
Now tell me what if that infant of yours came out with those gazing eyes
With your cute smile that I can still picture from when we first started dating.
Now tell me how would you take the existence of change?
Jun 10, 2014
Jun 10, 2014 at 12:34 AM UTC
Can't be seen,
Can't be touched,
Can't be smelled,
But it's there
Constant & consistent,
it grows.
Powerful & persistent,
it revels.
is everywhere:
In my heart,
In my mind,
In my daily life.
takes over life,
takes over people,
demands death,
demands people.
Jun 9, 2014
Jun 9, 2014 at 2:27 AM UTC