She was like music,
and I longed to dance.
Her heart was the beat,
and I begged for the chance.
Her words were the vocals,
and I was put in a trance.
Her smile was the melody,
and I fell in love at first glance.
May 28, 2022
May 28, 2022 at 11:54 AM UTC
Why do I do this...
It seemed like a good idea at first
but now I just sit here in the corner
with only the thoughts in my mind
and the feelings in my body
why do I do this to myself...
we both knew it wouldn't end well
so why did we?
I feel like **** and I know you must too
anxiety and depression eating away
until we are but skin and bone
whispers echoing in the endless void
sending chills up our spine
there's no escape so why do we hide?
the ending is already written
the ink is dry
why do I do this
Nov 2, 2021
Nov 2, 2021 at 10:15 AM UTC
I'm in love with you.
five words I can't say to you
for my soul is ready
but my heart is not
Oct 18, 2020
Oct 18, 2020 at 11:43 PM UTC
rouge applied to graying lips
chipped polish reveals the blue crescents on her nails
that match the ones beneath her eyes
her empty
empty eyes
match
her empty
empty thoughts
hollow
is what she wants
but it never occurs to her
that maybe she already is
Feb 7, 2020
Feb 7, 2020 at 3:08 PM UTC
Do you ever feel the hurricane of emotions just beneath your surface?
yet you deceive yourself into thinking
your fine
for your soul lacks the energy
to cry?
Feb 6, 2020
Feb 6, 2020 at 8:33 PM UTC
We thought we would never have to grow up
We were young and dumb, like all kids
We played for hours on end
Never a second thought
You were my best friend,
But people grow up
We loved each other like sisters
Fought like a married couple
But never a second thought
You found out about the world and all its secrets
While I stayed in my imagination
You wanted to be older
I wanted to stay young
But never a second thought
Years went by, we were inseparable
Conjoined at the hip
What happened?
You started dating
Spent time with boys
Not me
Not a second thought
You became preoccupied
You didn't have time for me
But I stayed there
As each guy left
Soon it was too much
You got a boyfriend
Only wanted him
Let him say things
Distancing us
You changed,I couldn't be around you
You weren't good for me anymore
I lost myself in the madness
We split apart
It hurt at first, it did
But in time
I realized that
I'm glad
Knowing you was one of the best things
i've ever known
But losing you
Set me free
May 28, 2019
May 28, 2019 at 10:39 AM UTC
So I have this boy that I like
He really likes me too,
He's nice and funny
But yet I feel
Worse than ever
I want to change
I think my brain is going insane
He says he wants to help
But he doesn't understand
My constant pain
Turmoil
Regret
He doesn't see the sadness behind my eyes
Or hear the tremor in my voice
But I don't blame him,
I'm the one who hides it,
The one who Can't explain the hate
The disgust
The disappoint
I have for myself
The **** I keep bottled up because
Regular people will never understand,
I want to scream until no sound escapes
Cry until my eyes dry out,
I have all this emotion and yet
No screams burst
No tears shed
He doesn't deserve this
He should have someone better
I have so much I want to spill on this page
But my mind can't catch up with itself
I'm a jumbled mess
I can't form the words
I wish I could tell you all this, but I can't
So I'll write it here in Hope that it will ease my tired soul
Apr 21, 2019
Apr 21, 2019 at 7:08 PM UTC
When I was little
I was scared
Scared of the monsters living under my bed
I used to hide, under my blanket
Under my blanket, I was safe
The monsters couldn’t reach me under my blanket
My parents used to say
The monsters would go away
I would grow up and that then they would leave
But I grew up
And the monsters didn’t leave
Turns out my monsters, grew with me
Now instead of under my bed
The monsters live inside my head
So I hide, under my blanket
Where I think I am safe
Wondering if after all this time
My blanket can still keep the monsters at bay
Mar 22, 2019
Mar 22, 2019 at 1:45 PM UTC
It's not even that I can't anymore,
I simply don't want to.
Mar 20, 2019
Mar 20, 2019 at 9:34 PM UTC